Almost got 4 ball juggle down! Okay, but genuinely it's been very hard for me to film lately. And I've filmed a lot of content that I just was not happy about and have a lot of scrapped videos from the past week and a half. Been really working on implementing clown into teaching but I'm just not liking how I'm setting up to film and the end result.
And of course lots going on in the world, lots going on in my world, and it's been very difficult to focus and follow through. Taking an hour or so out of my day to juggle is one of the few things that's keeping me sane!
I'm also still dealing a lot with feeling like I'm not contributing enough. I feel immense guilt and dissatisfaction if I post anything that's not educational. When I post online I want to contribute to something better. I want to be helping. I don't want to be a personality, I don't want to add to things that are hindering society like reliance on social media or something that increases parasocial habits.
Balancing a healthy life and healthy content is a priority for me at the moment. However I have a tendency to scrap, step away, and isolate when things start to feel too much.
So here's.... Something 🤹🏻♀️
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