Trans

My whole world still feels irreparably broken, but I'm doing a little better every day. I'll probably go back to work next week, although to be honest I could really do with another week or two so I can finish more stuff that'll keep my head above water, but I'll manage I think.

I'm back to working with my collectives already. I'm trying to get my FnB chapter properly organised for once, and I'm trying to set up a WordPress blog for my trans network but self hosting it is a bit annoying.

I started doing a year in pixels thing to track my recovery. I started it on the day I last had to go to hospital, I think I'm progressing well. If I'd started this earlier there'd probably be two weeks of solid red...

Things are absolutely horrible but at least im getting a small break from the horrors :3

My week is okay. I've been hanging out with some friends I met at a pride event, they seem really nice. Two of them are NonBinary. I haven't met someone who's NonBinary before but they seem like really nice people so far. I hope we can be good friends.

Got my ears pierced on Wednesday and had my first electrolysis appointment on Friday and I have to say it hurts less than laser so far 😅 and is far more effective. I have so many white hairs remaining though that it's gonna take a while until I'm done and a few dark hairs above my upper lip.

Had my first electrolysis appointment to prepare for SRS. Not quite as bad as I was expecting but still... ouch. Six months to a year of this to look forward to, plus the leftovers from laser on my face. This is going to cost a small fortune!

Apparently they have quite a few MTFs passing through, so I seem to be in safe hands.

Mostly okay with some deep upset as we near the end of being where we are in order to return to abuse and much less than ideal conditions for us.

ADHD/depression/executive-dysfunction spiral.

Bored, want to do something, have vague ideas of things to do but nothing particularly excites me, cant get myself to initiate or start anything.

Maybe I'll schedule some appointments so can can tell myself i accomplished something at least? I've put it off for so long, I've had good insurance for years but never taken advantage of it.

Kinda burnt out on ubisoft games and their repetitive format. Collect all the things and explore all the places to unlock the good weapons/abilities, then blitz the main game like its easy mode.

Edit: i did a thing! I submitted the contact form for a dentist appointment. Yippee. Two/three more major types of appointment to go.