Re-reading my post title after writing it in earnest has me laughing and cringing. It's like an ironic jab at what a CIA asset would write to get commie cred.

Maybe it's cause I'm also high rn but I don't see how the thoughts you've just described relate that strongly to materialism

It's like a communist version of Jon Stewart in Half Baked lol

"You ever think about materialism on weed?!"

Weed just makes me anxious, tbh. But yeah, "the self," "free will," etc. - all of that shit is just an illusion.

It makes me less materialist. Makes me stupider.

Oooooh if you feel that way with weed, just wait till you try shrooms - it's the ultimate humanist materialism.

Weed makes me paranoid and cranky. Maybe I was born weeded and smoking pushes me into negative weed territory, idk

Acid does that for me, although usually with more emphasis on the dialectical or "complex systems* part of diamat.

The 95/5 ratio is probably reasonable, but worth noting that the 5% active decisions can have a disproportionate impact. It's that 5% that allows us to interact with our material environment, which then shapes our passive decisions, the 95%. Zoom out from the individual and there's parallels at different levels, perhaps an argument for a vanguard party in some contexts.

Like using your ship metaphor, a ship is 95% at the whim of the ocean and wind. But the small tweaks and choices meant ships could, on average, fairly consistently, get roughly where they wanted to go.

Yeah it foes this but like the other person said, it also makes me paranoid lol.