Shortly after I took this photo I said "hey, what are you upto chunky?"
And the incredibly angry meow I got back in return put me in my place lol
Shortly after I took this photo I said "hey, what are you upto chunky?"
And the incredibly angry meow I got back in return put me in my place lol
That's a mini tiger in there ๐
Most work Iโve ever done for a bunch of flowers ๐
Their rose design is evolving!
Yes! I think additions will be necessary
mental health stuff - working stuff out by writing....
I had a lovely day out with friends but struggled to get any enjoyment out of it, and to focus on the moment (very brainfoggy). Made me realise I'm further down the depression path then I thought. I've had a few big stressful things going on that have made me anxious and down. But it's gone beyond external - haven't felt this disconnected and ...grey... for a long time.
I came home and went straight to bed - just felt completely overwhelmed. Have managed to make dinner finally by putting on a podcast for company. And that's rice and dal so I'll get lunch out of it too. I need to plan out my work week - it's busy and I like to get ahead of it on sunday but I'm just burned. No I can't realistically take a mental health day or three right now either (for reasons, trust me)
So. this week I will:
god, that sounds exhausting. And I need to realise it is exhausting - so I will use my 'spoons' for food, washing, sleeping, moving. And the work I have to do. That's going to be it this week.
I'm going to post here to try to keep track. Hopefully it's just from stress/burnout and I can get back out of the hole with a couple of weeks of care.
I might join you... I'm pretty good with having breakfast/dinner after 20 years of being inconsistent with either. But I have a habit of coming home from work, eating dinner on the couch and then not moving from there until I go to bed. I have almost no friends in Melbourne so I spend my weekends doing much the same.
You've got this! ๐
I hate when I come across shit like calculators. They still work, can't give them away, can't throw them out, already have 4 scientific calculators kicking around. I have no problem throwing broken shit out but when they still work I just can't do it as easy.
Kooka's Country Cookies are the best cookies. No other compares to the greatness of Kooka's.
These taste best when acquired from your motel room's complimentary coffee/tea bar.
Fully agree. Lemon is the bomb for me.
Yesss, love them. A packet of choc raspberry or lemon biscuits does not last even one day at my house lol
The lemons one are nice. Think Iโm going to buy some this week.
oh yes, they are very very delicious. I'm still not buying any.
The last dose was given last night. No more horrible narnies! ๐ Hopefully no more wrestling Melbcat either. Fingers crossed her tummy will settle down soon.
Edit: Switched up the food a little. Springwater tuna and tuna juice has been eaten! So sheโs had her regular meds without a fight. Little legend.
Iโve been buying the fragrance free Coles laundry sauce and itโs okay (finding an unscented generic product is kind of like finding a unicorn) but I still prefer the Aldi version because it has enzymes. I hope I can get the chance to stock up.
Gentle house cleaning and chin tucks. Multivitamin.
I really need to start doing a small amount of dumbbell rows each day again, wtf is this posture
We just went to the La Trobe market. You can't best a good old school market with the guy at the fruit and vegetable stall constantly shouting
I'm making kofta for dinner.
I can no longer tolerate tuna pasta. I can eat the same thing for months, but it does eventually get old lol
How are we doing no snacks after dinner gang?
Remember it doesn't have to go perfectly all the time. If you're hungry eat. If not, leave those snacks for when you are hungry. You've got this!
Joining the Odd Sleep club - kept on stirring awake every hour or so, with weird dreams the last couple of times.
The one that did me in the end was dreaming I went to a once off client (I work in aged care) and first of all the car wouldn't move and I was somehow blocking both lanes, then when I got there the client thought he was having heart problems and we agreed we'd wait and see what happened and yeah, if he wanted to finish his electronics project go for it, it'd soothe him whereas I know damned well from first aid training and personal experience that when in doubt you Call The Fucking Ambulance. So basically I couldn't get back to sleep for going WTAF, plus the cats both using my shoulders as pillows.
Eventually got up and turned on the heater because my face was freezing - took a while for the cats to figure it out but now Zooks is on my lap on the couch. Sammi is probably being a mini-potat in the bed
Trying to get used to Affinity products and getting a little frustrated. Adobe is the devil but boy-howdy do I know my way around those apps.
The Melb city ebook library is a bit lacking. Iโd love to get physical books but they are too heavy to carry home ( hot desk - have to bring my entire life back and forth)
Fun fact: public libraries across Victoria get State government funding as well as local, so membership is open to anyone with a Victorian address. And most if them let you join online without going in.
There are 50 Vic library services, join a few or all of them and get all the sweet ebooks you want. Some have heaps, some not many, somebody will probably have what you want.
Watching Spy but randomly skipping parts of the start because i want o love melissa mccarthy but there's only so much 'woman does stupid clumsy things and accepts being treated as lesser by overtly misogynistic farps' i can stand before i try to leap through the tv and attack her and i'm already close to the limit because miranda hart is in this too. Also still running a fever so relaity is trnous.
Maybe i should watch llama face instead
relaity is trnous
This is the truth of the universe
So's llama face
^awoo^
Back home and defrosted after a lot of cold, cold, cold, and cold. It was good to have a solid weekend away and with different people doing stuff I never would've done myself, partly because it makes me redevelop an appreciation for being at home again. I definitely feel like I got away properly and cleared some of the cobwebs in my head.
Dam, the new cafe has shitty snack packs. e: They're simple things to make well enough. Yet most places near me stuff them up in one way or another.
Iโm remembering how I was working hard on skincare and health before the lockdownsโฆ it feels like I lost all that and now have to start again from the bottom.
Kofta is a success!
There's my dinner for the next 4 nights. Fuck yeah!
Oh damn. Just woke up from a nap.
(So I <3 you Mlem, but you keep crashing or not opening.)
I have returned on Voyager. Itโs look on iPad is meh, but who am I to complain.
I also now have a dirty little secret. I finally tried CGPT today. It didnโt do the particular thing I wanted it to do, but it was interesting nonetheless. Iโve been reading some interesting comments on people replacing therapy with it and claims of better results with it and the image version than hired agencies. Thatโs a scary thought, but I guess it really highlights language and literal vs interpretation. Guess being a prompt engineer really is a thing.
Warning, strange dream stuff in a wall of text below.
In other wild news on the channel that is my brain. Holy hell. The dream/s I awoke from the morning I think just highlights some stress level at an all time high. My dream was such an insane jumble of scenarios saying it out aloud was just so bizarre. I do get a lot of jump/cut scenes in my dreams. So that bit isnโt unusual.
dream redacted
Then I wake up.
So I used to tell these weird dreams to my friend when I was in primary and her father used to always say I was fibbing. LOL.
If I could ever write this stuff, Iโd be a modern day Kafka. Hahahahah.
i shouldโve gotten up two hours ago but now im up and that is good
Modding Skyrim, looks like the 2021 Anniversary DLC is both necessary for a lot of mod lists and prohibitive on older mods.
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