my mental health has been getting worse (vent) (beehaw.org)

submitted 1 year ago by sleepybisexual@beehaw.org to c/lgbtq_plus@beehaw.org

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So this is a bit of a long one but things haven't been going well for me at all lately.

So things have basically been crumbling around me for a while now. First my now ex leaves me and just fucks up my mental health for a month or so. To the point where I'd spend at least 2 hours crying daily.

Then my best friend proves he's a bigoted asshole. Parents do usual shit messing me up further.

Now not only I see that nearly all my IRL friends are bigots. Then I just have a breakdown over body hair. Odk why I just hate everything about my shitty body. I hate this weak fat ugly sack of meat I call my body.

Then with basically 0 warning the only support network I had in mastodon blows up in my face because of sexual jokes I made and properly tagged.

The second I get comfortable with something it just blows up in my face. I'm honestly surprised I haven't hung myself yet

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[-] sleepybisexual@beehaw.org 2 points 1 year ago

Thing is I'm not out to them and don't plan to come out. Basically this is the average situation. This happened some time ago. So a "friend" of mine decided to hug me and felt the need to point out that in his words translated to English "this is a hug of friends not of (fslur)"

I'm kinda lonely tbh don't know what to do