Oh my goodness with the doubts. You nailed it.

I've been like this my whole life but sometimes I wonder if I've just been affected by all the short term empty dopamine we're surrounded with or if I really have this thing that completely matches up with the symptoms and the remedies actually fix.

Maybe it's the stigma when I have to admit I need to take my Adderall and have my 2x/daily coffee to function reasonably well. ._.