I was a paramedic back in my 20's and 30's. Constant crisis mode. I am a master of that shit. Clearest I ever am is in complete and utter chaos. That shit breaks your brain even worse though.
Imagine what you see and do every day as a paramedic. Now make it 100 times worse than you can even imagine and immerse yourself in it every day. The worst people have to offer as your daily routine. That is not good for anyone. PTSD is real. Added to ADHD it's a nightmare as we have been told repeatedly by doctors and researchers who study it.
I was a paramedic back in my 20's and 30's. Constant crisis mode. I am a master of that shit. Clearest I ever am is in complete and utter chaos. That shit breaks your brain even worse though.
What do you mean it breaks your brain? Isn't it good if you feel engaged in your work?
Imagine what you see and do every day as a paramedic. Now make it 100 times worse than you can even imagine and immerse yourself in it every day. The worst people have to offer as your daily routine. That is not good for anyone. PTSD is real. Added to ADHD it's a nightmare as we have been told repeatedly by doctors and researchers who study it.
Damn bro, I hope you're in a better place now.