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I'm so sorry that happened to you! It's perfectly reasonable to be afraid after that, I know I would be pretty freaked out and in shock if some asshole did that to me.
And I feel you about losing independence. I'm slowly losing the ability to drive my motor wheelchair so I mostly stay indoors and some days the sensation of feeling trapped gets so severe that I just sit there thinking of all the things I wish I could do but really can't easily.
Anyways I hope there is some music or movie you could put on that can help you clear your mind and take your mind off your pain for a bit. Take care comrade!
It makes me not want to go back in that supermarket but I need to because it's the only really close, disabled-accessible one. I'm worried about seeing him again.
Sorry that you're trapped indoors too. I know what you mean about the trapped sensation getting so severe, earlier this year I was virtually housebound for months and that was bad enough, I felt I was actually in prison and it really affected my mental health. I'm worried I'll go back to that soon as my mobility issues are worsening again.
As music goes, I can always objectively judge how good or bad my mood is by what music I want to listen to. When my mood is better I prefer trance or new retro wave. When it's bad I go towards metal, and the worse the mood the harder and more aggressive the metal. Right now I'm back on the aggressive metal. And it sucks having to listen to it low-quality on youtube as I had to sell the majority of my CDs due to poverty.
Sorry for the late reply I got hyper focused on a computer project and have been working on it nonstop for 4 days.
Damn it sucks you now feel unsafe going to the only accessible store near you. There are so few places we can go to that losing one is kinda devastating. Trust me I haven't been in a Mexican store in years! I used to be able to go to one right in front of my apartments to get decent tacos and junk food but I haven't found another store as spacious as that one since.
Thanks for your condolences. It feels less isolating knowing that others are going through similar things. I hope those NHS assholes can finally start helping you with your pain and mobility problems. I can't wait for Medicaid to start with their austerity bullshit lol
Oh funny I'm the same when it comes to my mood and what music I'm feeling like. A couple weeks ago I was doing pretty good and was on a Blues and zydeco binge but lately I'm back to punk and sad indie rock. The bright side is that I found some cool new artist like MUDRAT!
Fuck, you actually had to sell your collection? Do you still have your sound setup at least? How long were you collecting for?
Take care and please don't stop posting on here. I actually read most of your post whenever I login even if I don't leave a comment.
Sorry to hear you can't get Mexican food any more.
I have a few CDs left, not many. I've got a CD walkman, but I sold about 90% of my CDs, and my stereo. I would love to build it back up, the sound quality just isn't good listening on youtube and I always have to be mindful of the volume. I'd like to put headphones in and just rock out full volume but then I'm limited as to choice having so few CDs left.
I've never heard of zydeco before, I'll give it a listen.
Thanks, I always have a lot more I want to say on here but I'm just struggling to find the energy and cognitive effort to say as much as I want to.
Oh no don't worry I still get plenty of Mexican food that my family orders for takeaway, just not fresh at the shop. Takeaway is the UK term for takeout right? Besides I would literally die if I didn't eat any of my mom’s cooking lol
A CD walkman! That's actually really cool. But you're right physical media just has no competition when it comes to quality. I actually wait for the Blu-ray to release and don't bother with streaming if a movie looks really interesting. My brother thinks it's and just wants to watch the movie lol
Zydeco is very interesting. It's a really cool blend of cultures. I don't understand what they're singing about most of the time but it's great and so lively. It's very accordion heavy but I've been listening to Mexicans tear it up with an accordion all my life so I got a built in affinity already. Let me know what you think.
I know what you mean about not having the mental energy sometimes. I usually go weeks without texting my friend and just throw myself into my projects or zone out to movies or TV.
Yeah I have a CD walkman from the early 00s which sounds quite good. I also have a more recent one which doesn't sound good, although they still make them the quality is poor now. If my 00s one every gets damaged I'll be stuck with the crappy recent one. I think CDs and blu rays/DVDs are important because they can't be taken away whereas digital media can just vanish if they decide to wipe it.
My mental energy is almost non existent. I struggle even to write posts here. I have a lot of books I want to read but can't summon up the energy to do it.
I love that, never stop rocking that cool tech. I actually still have my iPod Nano from 2008. The battery doesn't charge but I keep it for sentimental reasons.
I know there's nothing I could do or say to instantly alleviate your suffering, but please feel free to message me if you ever need to vent.
Take care comrade!
I also have an ipod nano, got it free for switching my bank account about 20 years ago, and someone loaded it with songs as I'm terrible with tech. But now I can't add any more as I can't work out how. CDs are easier as you can just buy them and press play.
Thanks for the offer, might take you up on it!
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy: