Thanks, it's good to be heard. I am medicated, but that only gets me from completely nonfunctional to nail biting my way through life. Unfortunately I'm not able to use caffeine either, low amounts are ok, but anything more than a cup of tea leaves me extremely depressed, tired, and physically ill. After a lot of research (actually reading academic papers, not YouTube, lol) I've just started cautiously experimenting with micro dosing and it could very well be the placebo effect, but it seems to be working a little better than my meds. Of course it's illegal as all hell where I am and if I get caught I can kiss my job goodbye forever.