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Yeah for sure. It was such a mindfuck for me because I never knew I had it. I was just extremely anxious, social anxiety, always struggling with depression, averse to a lot of things, and low self esteem. I thought I was just weak-willed and wasn't trying hard enough. But realizing I had a disability this whole time changed everything. It all makes sense now. That stuff was always going to be there because of how I'm wired. Things will always be harder for me in certain ways.
But at this stage it's confusing where the lines are. Like, I'm not sure what I can do without burning out. Sometimes I have days that are so good it makes me question if I have it. Then other days are bad again and I feel silly for ever doubting. I don't know if I'll ever be able to work at a proper job. Or even at all. I'm lucky that at the moment I don't absolutely have to, but I don't know how long that will last, and it makes me scared.
Yeah it's definitely a disability.
Oof, I get that middle paragraph so much. I'm sorry the global instability can be so scary. Thank you for your input.