It seems like its been a fucking time for more than just me, so doing another check-in thread to see how yall are holding up. Especially since its been a LONG time since ive done one of these.
Got something you wanna vent about? Wanna share something cool? Nows the time!
Love you all 
For my own part - back from tour. The band made money, but I am broke. Fortunately, starting my first job in 2 years on Monday, and whats more, ITS FUCKING COOL! Finally out of the tech field, and working thru Americorps to help with a local anti-homelessness organization. Im gonna be doing back end stuff interfacing with other local orgs, but its still a job im happy to have and can be personally proud of rather than working with stupid bullshit SAAS stuff. Met a hexbear on tour and had a great time with them, and after 3 floods in a week, my partner and I are moved into a new apartment and finishing unpacking. This time were on the 4th floor! Nice building, no complaints, place is modern looking and very clean, it just feels surreal after everything that brought us here.
Been weirdly lacking in energy and motivation these past few weeks. I'm always lacking in energy and motivation, but this time it's a lot more than usual. It's been slow at my already easy to shirk WFH code monkey job, but no amount of rest or distraction seems to refresh me. I'm doing a presentation for my job next week that has a good chance of helping me convince management to give me a promotion (my decent (for a manager) direct manager thinks I''m long overdue for one, but upper management is gonna upper management), but I can't seem to not procrastinate on it. I have a life that's a lot more secure and comfortable than most burgers, but mentally I can't seem to do anything with it.
I feel like I have some kind of anti-grass forcefield that kills any drive to go outside, socialize, and do meaningful activities that would make me feel like more of a person and, when I try to do that stuff, the psychological benefits get sapped. I've been depressed basically my whole life, but this is different than I've ever had it. I've been seeing a new therapist who's supportive and willing to try different treatments than my last therapist, so I'm hopefully gonna get better.