Anarchism

You're running into the issues behind prefiguration, or the idea that the kernel of the new world can and must be practiced in the world of the old.

Simply put, a girl's gotta eat. You can and should work towards a better world, and engage with the theoretical traditions and backbones which have brought about great advancements in human dignity; but you also need to lay a working foundation for yourself to succeed well enough in life.

We struggle to make a better world not because the current world is full of people who simply don't know better and could choose to do something easier and more convenient for them (I.e. a syndicalist workplace, etc); but because we are at war with the ruling classes of our country who use every trick in the book to impoverish our people and the people of the world. It will take much more to win against them than finding the right job; it takes mass organization and strategy which is something you're best equipped to engage on when you're in a more stable place.

This sounds typical but I recommend investing yourself into a career, either trades or college, and engaging with mass protest movements in your area like Palestine Solidarity movements at this time. That would be more practical for being able to create a new world.