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A biotech company says it put dopamine-making cells into people’s brains
(www.technologyreview.com)
This is a most excellent place for technology news and articles.
i hate giving anecdotal evidence, but i wasn't expecting it to be such a black and white change for me personally.
i can draw a clear line between the previous twenty years of my life, and a few years ago.
it's just weirdly amazing to able to have a small thing go wrong and just be like "ah dangit." rather than having a depressive spiral and mourning my own existence for the rest of the day.
not that i don't sometimes have pessimistic thoughts or bad days, it's just not overwhelmingly defining of my every moment.
at the very least, i'm eager to see a lot more research being done. if it is legitimate, and others can have the same change in life experience that i've had, then it's a damn tragedy it hasn't been studied more thoroughly ages ago.
Yeah, its been an interesting transformation for me over the last few months, for sure. Psilocybin stopped being a party drug for me a while ago, actually. The drug isn't "showing me things" that I didn't already know, TBH. What I it is allowing me to do is parse through the extremely complex mind-fuck that I have been building for myself over the last 40 years.
My depression is gone and my anxiety is fading. I stopped my SSRIs a few weeks ago and had the mildest withdrawal from them that I have ever had in my life. My sleeping habits need a fuck ton more work, but one problem at a time.
Similar to Stamets and his story about stuttering, I am learning that I have much more control over my body than I previously realized, mood included.
I don't want to go so far as say it is a miracle drug, but it is absolutely rebuilding parts of my brain that I was trying to extinguish with hardcore alcoholism. There is something to this.
More controlled research please. If anyone needs a guinea pig for lab testing, sign me the fuck up! (I am trying to get in a study at UC Boulder this year so they can poke at me a bit.)