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I feel like my biggest bit of bullshit is that I'm still struggling with alcohol on a daily basis. I'm surrounded by it every single day and it has this insidious way of worming itself back into my daily life despite numerous attempts to stop. I'll be good for weeks or months at a time until one day I look at a bottle weird and suddenly decide "fuck it, I want to be drunk" and then 4 quick shots later I've fallen off the wagon yet again. I'm sure there's way more but it's not often I post literally mid relapse
Fuck that sucks. I know there's a lotta bullshit with traditional AA, but I hope you have someone you can lean on to get you through it. Relapsing is part of recovery, I know you can get thru it.
The thing is I don't feel like I'm depressed or am losing control or anything. I'm just so fucking bored all of the time. It's like my inner boredom gets so great that getting drunk is better than nothing at least.
This is me with weed :/