Today has been really rough for anxiety. Everything is hard right now and it’s a real struggle to cope. I caved and napped but at least I saw some sun and that will help nudge me towards the daytime.

Melbcat gets her b shots tomorrow and I’m really nervous about learning to do it.

The alyssum seeds have a best before of August… guess I’ll see if they sprout. The nasturtium should be fine. There’s an abandoned patch of earth that’s technically mine that I could sow directly into but I kind of don’t want to go out there because of unprotected proximity to a violent crazy neighbour and cooked passers by.

I might sow them into a container until they’re stronger then either plant them fast when the coast seems clear - or use recycled containers as pots. Or see how well they fight it out with the invasive grass that’s taken over what little soil I have in the yard.

I would have preferred these be native plants… Just trying to get some pollinators and good bugs in here and using what I could easily get my hands on.

I might spritz the zucchini with very weak soapy water, maybe like a drop of natural dish detergent, then water it off tonight.