I feel guilty for using this community like a Mastodon, even when the sidebar/community encourages it. I have a Mastodon account for practicing another language, but sometimes I don't want the challenge associated with that mental exercise. ๐ค
Anyway, I woke up today feeling absolutely tired, and it has continued all day. It's like wearing a weighted blanket, and trying to move. More mental than physical, though, and paired with slight irritability. ๐งโโ๏ธ
It's probably because I've been working a lot (6-7 days a week, but with variable hours on each day)... and waking too early, but I still feel like I'm not getting enough done. ๐ด My success in life has been due entirely to weaponizing fear into toxic productivity. Any slack in the line is interpreted by my brain as utter laziness.
Thank you for tolerating my brain spill and emojis. ๐ง
After seeing the new and the campy old Dune movies, I've been listening to the first book. About 1/3 through. I love the writing, but I find myself exhausted with the trope of "creepy bad fat man loves to abuse young boys". I imagine that this book influenced the same character archetype in the first Eve Online novel. But, as a gay man, it feels very frustrating like gay pedophilia is somehow being characterized as /the worst pedophilia/ when ALL of it is abhorrent. The gay themes just added to increase the "ick" factor for the common straight reader even more? To really seal in the evilness? Idk, it's annoying, especially when there's so much anti-lgbt hate being spread with accusations of pedophilia and grooming, but it seems non-lgbt individuals are making these art... Rant about harmful tropes aside, I am surprised by how well both movies stuck to the main events, although the book is much more likeable than either. The audio file is... Around online.