SnotFlickerman

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You act like that shit isn't happening right now under Trump. I am pretty fucksure we are all well aware of the dangers.

The point is not realizing if they didn't break some rules to stop him, Trump was gonna stomp all over every rule and has literally turned the DOJ into his own grievance chasing law firm.

So yeah, it's literally happening right the fuck now so why should I give a shit about someone breaking the same rules to STOP this from becoming the norm. It sure as fuck is the norm now.

After the RT reviews of Melania came out it became impossible to argue that they aren't gamed to hell and back. No way to trust their reviews anymore. I would trust even Plex reviews over these.

[–] SnotFlickerman@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 1 hour ago* (last edited 1 hour ago)

Absolutely, it was at the height of the "software as a service" phase and they were doing rolling updates for the Windows Insider program. For a hot minute they absolutely planned on it just being "Windows" from then on.

Vaguely, for most of the places I've lived, but the memories aren't super clear, but I'm also probably between a 2 and a 3 on the aphantasia levels. So it not being super clear but a general idea of layout makes sense.

Places like work are a lot less distinct, as are shared living spaces where I spent more time in my space and didn't go into other people's rooms. I worked in television for a long time, and I remember how the studios and control rooms for filming were generally laid out, I don't remember the organization for the rest of the building that I barely went into. I remember basically nothing at all about the first station I worked at, because they switched buildings and moved into a new space about a year after I started working there. I have a vague memory of the control room and studio, but it's a lot less clear than the others, which are also vague.

I remember the layout of the park and pool that I worked at clearly, but that was one of my favorite jobs ever, so it tracks that I'd have a lot of memories of it. Also I worked alone so I had to cover the whole area instead of having areas that I wouldn't go into.

I remember vaguely street layouts from places I've lived, but I usually have to go look at a map for a clearer picture in my mind how everything in the area was connected.

Lucky, what I wouldn't give to get my hands on a Mac with an Apple silicon chip.

I don't have any suggestions, just...

I am Jack's complete lack of surprise.

For sure, it's a vast improvement, but there's still so much you can't do with it.

[–] SnotFlickerman@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 8 hours ago (2 children)

And they still haven't even finished making PowerShell anywhere near as functional as Bash or any other Linux shell environment.

I don't outright hate PowerShell but it's clearly a hacky afterthought after realizing Linux was eating their lunch in the server space via quick rollouts to thousands of computers at once through Bash scripting.

[–] SnotFlickerman@lemmy.blahaj.zone 7 points 8 hours ago (1 children)

Right, but that's just it, they're basically pulling another Vista if they release Windows 12 later this year.

It’s not clear whether Windows 12 will welcome any non-NPU processors. More likely, PCs that don’t meet its system requirements will lose some functionality.

As the article reasonably posits, it's way more likely that they'll just degrade the experience for people without NPUs, which in other words means decreased performance on older hardware, a la Vista on non-compliant hardware.

[–] SnotFlickerman@lemmy.blahaj.zone 24 points 8 hours ago (3 children)

They're already fucking this up with vibe-coding Windows 11, so if they seriously go all-in on this, Windows 12 will be a bigger disaster than fucking Windows Vista and Windows Millennium Edition combined.

Windows 10 arguably became passable for stability about 3 years after release... but you still had to cut out the advertising bloat, spyware, and all which undermined any gains of stability because that shit was just fucking annoying.

 

Don't be weird, don't be mean
You're on my computer screen
It's my world, it's my life
I'm a person
Please be nice

I don't even know who you are
Please be nice it's really not that hard

 

EDIT: Thanks for everyone's kind words and support. I'm not sure how to reply to most of them, but just know I read all of them. I will be seeking out therapy and figuring out what's right for me this week. Thanks so much.

I hope this is the right place for this.

So, I've been having conversations with some of my trans-friends that have been making me think about things in my life.

Let's start with background.

When I was little, I always knew I wanted to be a girl. I wanted to be a girl so badly, even from when I was like six years old. Part of it was certainly that I was treated differently than my sister and made to feel guilty for being a boy because I was "just like my father" which is an insane thing to dump on a six year old. Yet, part of it was also sincere. I remember once my mom told me to be careful what I wished for or I just might get it and I spent months wishing I was slowly turning into a girl, just telling myself the process would be slow but I just had to keep wishing and praying for it. I remember a friend telling me about a video game they had that included a station for brewing potions and I was secretly obsessed with trying to find a gender changing potion (surely not in the game, but I was a kid who just wanted it to be real).

When I was 12 my mom caught me putting on my sisters clothes and put the fear of God in me and told me to never do it again, like she did with most things she didn't understand when it came to me. I stopped trying to do it, and I remember feeling very conflicted and crying a lot about giving up my dream of becoming a girl.

In high school though, I would often crossdress for Halloween, lied to myself and others and that it was just a fun silly thing to do. (To be clear my mother was around a lot less in high school so I was able to hide the fact that I did this from her) But if it was just for fun why did I slather my whole body with Nair to be more feminine? Why did I feel so good about how I looked in that one dress? Why did I spend so long gazing in the mirror and loving the feeling and wanting it to be real?

As an adult, I realized I was always more excited about pretty dresses and buying them for my girlfriends than they were about them. That I was more excited by the trappings of femininity than they were, and that maybe deep down it was because I was trying to live vicariously through them.

I grew up in the 80s and 90s, though, and I didn't even really know that being trans and transitioning was even really an option until I was pushing into my late twenties when I first started realizing trans people existed and had existed. I have always felt an affinity for the trans community, obviously, because to an extent I understood the experience.

But for 20 years I have spent my time making excuses for why I can't or won't consider the idea that I'm trans. "I'm too tall. I'm going bald (starting balding in my twenties). My hands and feet are too big. My hips are to narrow, my chest too deep. I'm too hairy. I would be an ugly woman and I want to be pretty, not ugly. I'll end up alone and unloved." I guess only more recently it hit me that if I'm making excuses for why I can't do it, then somewhere it means that I do want to do it still. That dream never really went away. The desire to be pretty and feminine never stopped, I just hid it away really well and constantly told myself that this was the body and life I had and that I had to get over it.

I'm in the USA, and I know this is pretty much the worst time to be reckoning with these feelings, but as I already have cancer, already am on the path to trying to get on disability, and already am on Medicaid, which the plan I am on in my state (Washington) covers a large portion of the aspects of transitioning (HRT, hair removal, facial feminization surgery, body contouring surgery, top surgery, and bottom surgery) it feels like it could be the last chance I have to stop telling myself excuses for why I can't be who I always wanted to be.

Part of it is I had one of my friends convincing me to try one of those gender-swap faceapps where they still adhere to your actual face shape, and my god, I was on the verge of tears, I didn't look ugly like I thought I would. I ended up staring at it for hours and looking at my face from every angle and wondering why I had lied to myself about the possibility of being pretty.

I don't know why I'm writing this other than to get it out and there and maybe field advice from the community. I'm seeing my psychiatrist this week and I'm going to ask her if the agency I'm at has any counselors who specialize in gender dysphoria/body dysmorphia. I figure I may as well talk to a professional about it for a while to try to come to more clear conclusions.

Does anyone have advice for someone in their mid-forties finally exploring this for real and trying to decide if it's for them? I know it won't solve all my problems, I know it won't magically make me happy when I have had chronic depression all my life from other trauma I have experienced... I just, I don't know, I'm going through a lot of changes in my life anyway due to my cancer and having to start my life over, part of me feels like maybe I should start it over the way I actually want to, then.

I hope this wasn't too long of a ramble, and I appreciate anyone who hears me out and cares to tell me anything that would be helpful, supportive, or make me feel more at ease at the idea or transitioning so late in life while my country wants to make what I desire even harder to achieve.

 

Shamelessly stolen from you know where

 

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submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by SnotFlickerman@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/music@lemmy.world
 

[Intro: Devi McCallion]
Programming like this
Is made possible
By viewers like you!

[Verse 1: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
Every day, every day, I'm so fucking freaked out
Every day, every day, I can't get the evil out
Every night I feel so far away
Someday, someday
Will it ever be okay?

Every day, it's a brand new episode
Every day, I guess we'll see just how far it goes
Every day, it seems like no one sees and no one knows
Every day, I kinda wanna cancel the show

[Pre-Chorus: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
Most days I just feel like I'm making it up
Call off the show
I pray to god that I'm just making it up
I don't wanna go to the show!

[Chorus: Ada Rook]
I wish this was just a cartoon so I could be like
"This is real as fuck, I love the way they don't give up!"
Tweet about it, "more stories like this, so important!"
But it really happened
Oh god, it really happened!

[Spoken: Devi McCallion & Ada Rook]
"So, uh, I have this idea for like, a cartoon or something.."
"Uh-huh."
"And, it's like.. There's these fucked up kids..."
"Uh-huh."
"And like, through the power of uh..."
"Understanding!"
"Yeah! It could totally be like, understanding, or like, forgiveness or something..."
"Uh-huh."
"They like, overcome all their fears, and in the end, they turn out to be like, fine.."
(Both laughing)

[Bridge: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
Aaaaaghhhhh!
What the fuck!
What the...
I wanna do that again, yeah

[Verse 2: Devi McCallion]
Every day, it's another new episode
Every day, slice a bit more meat off the bone

[Pre-Chorus: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
I can feel the evil in me
I'm such a faker really
Meat off the bones...
Crisis line, all agents busy
I feel so guilty
Meat off the...

[Outro: Ada Rook & Devi McCallion]
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!

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submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by SnotFlickerman@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/music@beehaw.org
 

[Intro: Devi McCallion]
Programming like this
Is made possible
By viewers like you!

[Verse 1: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
Every day, every day, I'm so fucking freaked out
Every day, every day, I can't get the evil out
Every night I feel so far away
Someday, someday
Will it ever be okay?

Every day, it's a brand new episode
Every day, I guess we'll see just how far it goes
Every day, it seems like no one sees and no one knows
Every day, I kinda wanna cancel the show

[Pre-Chorus: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
Most days I just feel like I'm making it up
Call off the show
I pray to god that I'm just making it up
I don't wanna go to the show!

[Chorus: Ada Rook]
I wish this was just a cartoon so I could be like
"This is real as fuck, I love the way they don't give up!"
Tweet about it, "more stories like this, so important!"
But it really happened
Oh god, it really happened!

[Spoken: Devi McCallion & Ada Rook]
"So, uh, I have this idea for like, a cartoon or something.."
"Uh-huh."
"And, it's like.. There's these fucked up kids..."
"Uh-huh."
"And like, through the power of uh..."
"Understanding!"
"Yeah! It could totally be like, understanding, or like, forgiveness or something..."
"Uh-huh."
"They like, overcome all their fears, and in the end, they turn out to be like, fine.."
(Both laughing)

[Bridge: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
Aaaaaghhhhh!
What the fuck!
What the...
I wanna do that again, yeah

[Verse 2: Devi McCallion]
Every day, it's another new episode
Every day, slice a bit more meat off the bone

[Pre-Chorus: Ada Rook, Devi McCallion]
I can feel the evil in me
I'm such a faker really
Meat off the bones...
Crisis line, all agents busy
I feel so guilty
Meat off the...

[Outro: Ada Rook & Devi McCallion]
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!
What the fuck?!

 

I see way more posts complaining about Windows users complaining about switching to Linux than I have ever actually seen of Windows users actually complaining about switching to Linux.

 
 
 
 
 

!NSFW@lemmy.world

I don't want to moderate this community, I didn't even know it existed until moments ago. Someone posted a pornographic/explicit post to Lemmy Shitpost, which is against the rules. I noticed the same user posted in NSFW, which surprised me because I thought Lemmy.world generally didn't host pornography. Anyway, it looks like the moderators all mostly logged in most recently two years ago (one of them one year ago) and there seem to be a lot of posts in there breaking the rules laid out in the community.

As I said, I don't want to moderate the community, but as it seems unmoderated and likely a draw for spammers/scammer/content sellers, perhaps it would be a good idea to just close it up until someone else actively wants to take it over. Just to reduce likelihood of spammy accounts, imho.

Anyway, thank you for your time and efforts here.

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