Heheh yeah that hits the spot! What about this one?
There's this part of me that goes like
┌ ┐
│2.0 0.0 0.0 0.0│
│0.0 1.5 0.0 0.0│
│0.0 0.0 1.0 0.0│
│2.0 0.0 0.0 1.0│
└ ┘
Want to see what it does next?
Oh thank you for this! I definitely want to actively explore further, and I don't really think of it as gatekeeping myself behind the right label.
It's mostly me being conscious and afraid of making decisions that have a lasting impact, like coming out (even if it's just about the fact that I'm figuring things out). Physical changes that can't easily be reversed are still a ways away.
But I will try to take your advice to heart and allow myself to take some steps. There's always the option of chickening out, right?