GrumpyCat

Hello 19 year old with autism and depression here. Im on pills given by a doctor, ive tried therapy, dnd even. I just feel depressed and im not sure why possibly hormones or maybe that fact that i haven't accomplished anything in my life or even done anything, also im broke to say. Everyone tells me to workout but i dont feel motivated to even do that plus its super hot outside and i cant afford a gym, maybe im making excuses...

I just feel lost on where i should be right now in life and im clueless on what the next steps are.

Im not sure where to post this at but it bugs me and i want to share my experience and thoughts.

Hello im 19 year old with autism if that matter. Im not allowed a job because parents said no and yes i know im a adult but i cant drive and im dependent on family and they are with me aswell. Anyways i felt so down in the dumps and just wanting a way to earn money, that i thought surveys and get paid to sites would be a change. There a waste of time and only good for earning pennies. most of the time you do the survey and when you fishish it screen you out not giving you a reward. I even get money from the government for having autism but it goes towards bills and life, the little i have left i always blow it on something dumb (I have a problem).

I want to let you know never try those sites there just not worth it and take weeks of slave labor to even get a dollar.

And now i ask how do i earn money in a real way or get a job from home? I wanted to be my own boss sense i felt busy but im not sure anymore.

I have no real experience in art but yet i want to make projects like video games. What are some free ways to make 2d assets and packs for free, how do i learn, what style should i study, where do i find reference images/poses? etc.

I know i could use pre-made assets but i really want to try my hand at art.

Im trying not too make this post too long but feel free to add onto this if you wish.

I found a external drive and made a dual boot. I just thought i should let you all know.

Thoughts?

Not sure if this goes here or not?

Ive played a little bit of mmorpgs back int he day, that stars wars one to be exact, which felt more like walking sim more than anything. Im considering picking up old school runescape but im not sure if its good choice or not? What mmorpg that is free would you like to suggest to me a beginner?

Im going to rant a tad bit, but i could use some advice.

I cant really get a job because i cant drive and there are no buses (not like i could afford a bus anyways). I also have to stay at home with family because they have health issues and im paranoid. I want to be self employed but honestly im not sure. IM not even sure what i could do for self employed sense im broke and a young adult. I would likely be better off with a job but i cant go out and get one. Its like i want a hobby but everything i want to do requires money or something of that nature.

So i have a gaming desktop that not the best or the newest. What takes up most of my drive space is games, updates, and software's. Im wondering if i should switch to linux and if linux will improve any performance for my main machine? If you believe i should switch what os should i go with or why or why not should i switch?

I mostly game and do mess with ollama/ai tools because i think that's cool. I want to do more things in the future but that might beyond my drive space?

What would you advise?

Im wondering what games beside doom and classic arcade games like pong, can run on any sort of device and what the limitations are? everyone says will it run doom? but what others games have the same support doom has?

Im not sure if this post goes here but ill start here.

You may not know this but i have autism and dyslexia. I recently got out of highschool but im not quite sure what to do with my life, ideas are hard sometimes. I do have a few ideas but they woudent be beneficial in the long run.

Do i find a hobby, get a job, go to collage, there's so much im not sure where to start or what to stick with?

I hate how capcut has gotten to. Ive tried davcihi resolve but i find it isint as easy as capcut. I want to try a open source video editor for my linux mint laptop that is really free and so easy even a child could learn it.

Im up for suggestions or a change of my mindset.

Like if i were to use lemmy almost everyday or post in community's would that annoy people or is it ok? I had a reddit addiction very bad and im trying to replace it with lemmy....

Thoughts?

I know this is a dumb question... But i cant really aford a vpn like at all, is it possible to torrent without using a vpn in the USA or will i get in some trouble and go to jail if i torrent without a vpn?

The reason i cant get a vpn is because im just broke and im young enough to live with family so i cant really get a job.