Bottom surgery done the correct way >>> penis cut off.

(I wish they'd let me get it 😭, well at least mine is much smaller than it was before I started estrogen)

Well you have to look to a source to buy Estrogen and blockers grey-market, can be hard since it's... well it's a grey area. There's more to it than that but that's the hard part.

Pirated it (did DIY HRT)

Same, it's really helpful especially because I'm trans and those type of people can be anything from unpleasant to downright dangerous. I was actually assaulted by one of those right-wing assholes because a little girl bumped into me while I was walking, they then yelled "Groomer!" And ended up punching me really hard in the face and kicked me in the stomach, asshole literally broke my nose.

There's an obvious difference between someone having a different political belief and a dangerous political belief. Being radical conservative is a dangerous political belief. Forgive me but I don't want to hang around people who call me slurs or physically threaten me for who I am, or just try to take away my access to live-saving medical care.

Fascism, bigotry, and authoritarianism is not an opinion, in the same way that arsenic isn't a flavor.

It's a meme about gender identity using techy terms in different ways to describe how a person realized they were trans (or I guess that they aren't trans). Basically it's humor, it's also a shitpost.

I've been trying for years, and while it does sound different than before I know it will probably never pass. Many people have said it does to be nice, and while I appreciate them trying to make me feel better, passing or not passing is a serious problem for me. I did use voice test apps, and sent samples of my "fem voice" to voice training communities without telling them my gender first and they said it sounded masculine. Plus I can't do the different voice too long before I get tired but if I don't even pass with it, what's the point?

It was actually estrogen, but yeah basically.

I really hope at some point you get to a point where you can feel comfortable expressing yourself in ways that match who you are. I'll admit it does take some hard work, but the rewards are often worth it, they come in the form of self-acceptance and being happy with who you are.

would be a 6’3 trans woman with shoulders like an NFL linebacker, and likely in my mid to late 40s at best.

I know many people who felt that same way and they still pass wonderfully, yes it does take hard work and does take time. But it's nowhere near as hopeless as it seems.

My family is never going to disown me, mind, I could burn down an orphanage on Christmas Eve and dance in the ashes and my mom would be livid, but that lady would love me and I’d be still welcome at dinner.

I'm glad to hear that your family is accepting. That's more than I can say for my family. I haven't talked to them in almost 7 years. They wanted nothing to do with me when I came out as trans, and were especially disgusted by the idea of me being on HRT. It's nice to hear that your family will still accept you even if you choose to make changes.

I’m never going to feel comfortable in my own skin, so I figure I might as well be uncomfortable and still enjoy the benefits and privilege of cis white guy status. Do I hate my body? Yes. Do I wish I could change in fundamental ways that go far beyond simple weight loss or whatever? God yes. Do I realistically have the resources to make that happen and reach a point where I think I could like my body? No.

I used to feel a very similar way before my egg broke. I thought I could just push it down and live life as a normal cis boy. I couldn't. The dysphoria eventually becomes unbearable. It can feel overwelming and hard to take the first steps, hard to make the first changes. I recommend taking things slow and starting with little things. Maybe you might not be ready for HRT but maybe try out some little social things that might make you happy, like makeup or nail polish, just something that feels gender affirming to you. You could even do these things in private. Just little things that can be first steps then take it slowly from there.

Oh God. I’ve never actually admitted any of this before, and I’m a little scared shitless right now. I seriously may delete this.

It's okay if you want to talk to me about it more privately I can do it in DMs . If you want to reach out to others in the community here are some good communities that can help:

Discussion:

• !mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
• !trans@lemmy.blahaj.zone
• !nonbinary@lemmy.blahaj.zone
• !asktransgender@lemmy.blahaj.zone

Memes:

• !egg_irl@lemmy.blahaj.zone
• !traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@lemmy.ca
• !transmemes@lemmy.blahaj.zone
• !196@lemmy.blahaj.zone

If you want to speak in a more private place I'd recommend joining the Blahaj.zone group on Matrix, instructions on how to join that here: https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/15256176

Don't worry, I'm happy to listen to it if it can help out a fellow transfem sister.

I tried and no matter how hard I try my voice doesn't pass as fem. Some people say it does trying to be nice but when I showed samples to some voice training communities without telling them my gender, just asking if it sounds masc or fem they confirmed my suspicions, voice training apps also confirm my voice is still well within the masc range. It's tiring to keep trying and if my voice doesn't pass unless people are being nice I don't see the point, still makes me feel bad though 😭

Indeed it is, this person obviously had problems around their penis, personally I think it could've been gender dysphoria but it could've also been sexual trauma. Either way, shrooms alone aren't going to make you want to cut your dick off. Gender dysphoria absolutely can and sometimes does make you feel that way though, take my word for it, dysphoria is no joke.