You have probably heard an idle mind is the devils playground. I see this as a way of what you are describing.

Society is breaking down

If you have no chance of building something (careers/relationships/home) you don’t have goals.

If you have no purpose and goals even hobbies and entertainment can feel empty.

This then turn internal and starts playing with your brain and you’ll turn against yourself. This isn’t a you problem, it’s easy to fall in a hole. You maybe need to find some constructive ways to calm your brain and be positive.

I wish you peace buddy.

You're the sort of person who has compassion for a bug; that's like half the people in the world. You're in the good half. That's what I appreciate about you.

That last line… oh that resonated with me. I felt your humanity. the wording of having to immerse yourself in it, so sorry to hear that, but it sounds like something you care about and trying to fix, and I feel it’s of good value. Which speaks of the kind of person you are. Not sure where in the world to direct a virtual hug to you. 🤗

Look I don't know what you're going through but it can and will get better. Sounds like a lot of bad situations piling on top of each other but it can't last forever.