Jeez you made me think about how much fucked up shit I've been through.

1. Publicized school shootings on TV 90s
2. Watching the second plane crash on live TV on 9/11
3. Medical trauma 1: had testicular torsion ,went in 12 hours after it started, they tried to untwist it by hand while I was conscious, morphine ain't shit
4. Medical trauma 2: spontaneous pneumothorax, the ketamine they dosed me with didn't work so that chest tube insertion fucked me up
5. PMTSD related anxiety and depression
6. 2 more pneumothorax
7. 2008 financial crisis
8. college went well, but first job out of college after I got my computer engineering degree payed a fucking grand total of $51k.
9. 2016 election
10. Hit 250lbs
11. 2019 my highschool sweetheart wife cheated on me
12. COVID-19
13. Hit 280 lbs
14. Jan 6 insurrection
15. Stagflation
16. Lost 70lbs because of cutting back on food spending and weightloss medication
17. discovered my wife sexting the guy she cheated on me with after being in marriage therapy for 4 years
18. hit 250lbs again

Jesus christ, is this resilience, or are we all so burnt out that we just accept everything getting worse always.

Like I get the joke in Russia is "and then it got worse." But Jesus christ, it can't get worse if it's always bad can it?