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Damn, I skipped the first two. I was a radlib, hated the liberals more and more. Saw some communist content on Instagram. It recommended State & Revolution, I thought "oh, yeah, Lenin was an author! I should read what he has to say!". Boom. That book lays out all of the things wrong with reformism and it outlines why the state functions as it does. Lifted the veneer of liberal democracies and exposed them for the tool of bourgeois oppression that they are. Made me despise all of Western politics. Decided to read Stalin, Engels, Marx (Marx still kicks my ass, though). Started really focusing on dialectical materialism. It reinforces the dictatorship of the proletarian, which Western leftists who aren't MLs will never be caught dead supporting.

I'll say, I never had a "red scare" aversion to anything communist or Soviet like American chauvinists do. I was at the very least aware that communists were the ones willing and capable of fighting Nazis and fascist paramilitary death squads funded by the US, so I knew there was something "missing" about the American narrative of "communism bad". I mean, not that I held the US in high, moral regard as they're genocidal bastards, but I did believe a lot of the shit about AES countries being "authoritarian dictatorships", which is such an absurd, idiotic belief granted that all states have their own dictatorship and authority over the populace. Looking back, it's almost embarrassing to have had essentially no principles: somehow, I knew the US was a great terror to the world, but on the other hand, I believed much of the anti-communist propaganda just like every other uneducated leftist and liberal.

Being a liberal boils down to being so unbelievably uneducated about the world. It means viewing the world and societies' development outside of reasoning and the scope of science. It's pure fantasy and idiocy, and it's no wonder that the "well-meaning" liberal finds themselves so blindsided and impotent when their system adapts a more nakedly fascist character.