That's pretty much exactly what I've been trying to communicate to friends and family, but then it's always just seen as me being a complaining / demanding jerk, so then I just isolate my self a bit more.

It's like I'm drowning and I know how to swim, yeah, but I've been swimming too long and I just need some life saver or something. And it sort of feels like my family is just there on the edge of a pier where I can see, yelling at me to "swim harder", basically. Even when they could very well help. Oh well.

Thank you s thousand times again for the affirmation. Yeah, that's another word that doesn't directly translate to Finnish, lol.