Melbourne

Made it down to the bellarine yesterday.

Had to escape. Shit was too tense. All the food is sorted for ol' girl but jeez did that little stint of not eating enough do a number on her mind and mood. Meltdowns about very odd things like overloading a circuit (had dryer, heater, washing machine and hairdryer on). Said I'm going to have to turn the heater off for a bit and all hell broke loose ('you can't do anything right'). Suggested to layer up for a bit (p's have a lot of cold weather stuff)... 'don't tell me what to do'.

Meltdown after weighing her (she's waay down, accusing me of not doing enough), then tipping the ensure I had ready to go in soup down the sink 'because I don't want it'. So I suggested if I can't get enough in we'll have to bypass the mouth which means you'll have to go in... 'you just want to get rid of me'.

GP prescribed her mirtazapine which she refuses. Took one myself (lol not supposed to do that) just to see if it does stimulate appetite and it surely does and would be really helpful. I am/was tempted to chuck it in food but I'm drawing the line at prescription. Happy to go behind her back w/ ensure though.

You try and reason but it just doesn't work. Frustrating af. Not her fault but it's exhausting trying to work out what to do as it changes daily.. so many moving parts.

Have to give respect to those in aged care doing this stuff for a living. It's wild enough just with one person.

They'll be down here over easter so few days off then back on the horse.