Autism

let me start by saying i recently learned of my autism late in life, so i've had no awareness of some of my behaviors as autistic until recently.

it's often said that people with autism have a strong personal sense of right and wrong. neurotypicals may label it as stubborn but i see it as principled. obviously, nts can have an equal sense of right and wrong, but it does appear to be uniquely within autism that it can present as a detriment. for example, i will often sabotage myself if it means i'll be forced to do something i find reprehensible or objectionable, like i'd rather risk homelessness than take a job in health insurance if i was unemployed.

how has this affected you throughout your life?

for me it has been both a benefit and a massive hindrance. over time i have learned ways to recontextualize certain situations and circumstances, but there are areas i am simply unwilling to compromise on.