askchapo

Sounds like youre refusing to absorb other's self projections and not lashing out. I have no idea if your exact version is completely healthy, but it sure sounds like a safe shell.

I like showing myself off because I want to feel as radiant and beautiful as possible. I think that's the way more people could feel. And that never feeling and expressing our radiance can be a waste of our life. I wonder how I can do both, what you're doing and what I'm trying to do at once.

I used to give all people compassion each time I noticed someone acting insecure, but this often hasn't worked because so many people act and talk in bad faith. It's their shell, and when you point out their insecurity by saying its okay to look/be insert an okay thing to be, they usually will deflect and won't allow a crack in their shell for light to be let in. It's sad, I know what it's like to be in the dark about my beauty. Since reaching my highest ever weight, I'm recently very in the dark about it again. I feel like if I vulnerably act and dress like I'm proud of my body, people will feel entitled to shaming me. In their head and out loud with me in earshot of them.