Language Learning

Well done! You're making me want to retry Spanish with the GF, I might try it once she wakes up later.

Been pushing hour long study sessions in to my Japanese as well as my Spanish and also doing 10-25 mins of maths a day, as well as exercising (cycling) for 20 mins a day all week. Been having a very hard day just today though and not sure I can make it today, but I'll certainly try to.

... Also feel guilty about my Irish lately, it feels like out of all languages I should be learning, Irish should be one of them. I felt so guilty that I managed to make a few flashcards in Irish using one of those Irish dictionaries. But lord knows if it'll actually go anywhere. It's hard enough to muster the strength to do an hour in Japanese, let alone an hour in Spanish, let alone the other stuff too. But not learning Irish still kills me at times. In part because people keep saying how terrible Duolingo ends up being but the Duolingo Irish learners are still leagues ahead of me too. I'm Irish, born and lived here my whole life, yet can't speak a word of it. I feel like I'm sort of a disgrace.

I often find that when days are good, the best I can feel is when I'm studying. But days where it's hard, I can't study to relax, and I can't find other ways to relax besides studying, my mind is constantly racing, and I can't watch or play anything and I enter this phase where I'm constantly trying to do something but ruminate on the bad instead, then have to disengage with the distractions since it's not distracting enough.

So that's been at me today again. Really wishing I had a different brain, I get so panicky like today for the dumbest of reasons and I was doing really good up until now too. I'll try study after this post, and then if today is successful, I'll post a small update of how the day went. I think today is just a day where I need to rough it out and learn how to rough it out.

Sorry for the wall of text.

Hopefully a good update soon.