Have to admit that covid was for me the final nail in my radicalization five years ago. Been lurking the longhauler sub all this time and it's been a place of both incredible "just throw money at it and you'll be fine" takes and takes that show how people are becoming more class conscious due to the conditions they are in with longcovid.
The latest example is this discussion and considering that this is from reddit I'd say it looks like that people keep moving left when they have to live with the fallout of capitalism, even from more privileged positions.
That resonates with me a lot, I used to always be the strong girl and lifting was one of the ways of affirming my larger bodysize and conflicts I felt with my gender as well, I took pride in being strong more than in how I look.
It has resulted in all kinds of soul searching that tbh revealed a lot of things about myself that I didn't like, mainly attitudes, bodily norms and self stigma. These days I am working to be kind and loving to my body and accept it as it is. It has been through so much.
I suspect there's a dopamine thing at play too with working out. I've realized that now as due to covid I no longer get that buzz or good feeling from working out much at all. That has been one of the hardest losses and I now understand I worked out so much and so hard to keep making it and to stay sane in this hellworld. Sometimes way too much. This has been replaced with class consciousness and a kinder outlook towards myself, but I do miss that high. But it also affirmed my understanding of undiagnosed neurodiversity which also came to me from all of this and covid.
Talking about all of this feels healing, I agree that it's great that this comm is here and I am very happy that you chose to have this discussion with me. This is stuff that is wholly marginalized in the daily world.