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Halloween party sounds like a time haha

I hear ya on the suddenly being grumpy thing. When it happens to me I’ve started going “sorry, I’m just a little turned around by [thing]”. I remember one time almost exactly a year ago at my friends’ place where I was feeling kinda weird so I went and did the dishes. One of my friends broke off and came over like “hey! Guests don’t do dishes!”(he wanted to be a good host and was worried that I had felt obligated to help). I told him that really I just needed a quiet moment and to feel useful more than anything and it was all chill. The more I’ve gotten used to just saying I’m off balance/feeling funky/a bit ramped up/whatever else the more I’ve been able to feel safe closer to the edge of those feelings. Hell, there are times with the right people where I even feel ok if I need to be in the “danger zone” because there will be a safety line. If your friends don’t let you take a break then that’s on them, not you.

Any kinda note works! Mine was just in the notes app on my phone but whatever lets you most easily start writing is the way to go. Could be that app function, could be a scheduled time or allowing yourself to enter stuff as the day goes on, a mix, whatever. Also Logseq looks cool, I may have to grab that and try it out!