I suggest working on your emotional issues before committing to another relationship. They might be more complex than you imagine. You might think you are depressed, for example, when in reality this is a symptom of being neurodivergent. Accepting yourself for who you are, right now, is necessary, and that requires knowing yourself.
My yo-yo string just broke when my wife told me she wanted a divorce. The "ah fuckit" is already strong in me. And I'll be 40 in 6 years.
Ah. You got one of those fancy yoyo's with disco lights and stuff. Mine just does walk the dog.
I suggest working on your emotional issues before committing to another relationship. They might be more complex than you imagine. You might think you are depressed, for example, when in reality this is a symptom of being neurodivergent. Accepting yourself for who you are, right now, is necessary, and that requires knowing yourself.