Thanks everyone for the support yesterday. Despite feeling it was impossible I called in sick today and have spent the day sleeping (proper sleep not depression hiding I think) and on the couch listening to gentle music and journalling. Cleaned the kitchen. Haven't eaten much but it's good food. Drinking lots of water. About to go wash my hair.

My brain is exponentially calmer now. I wouldn't say I am looking forward to work tomorrow but it's not making me cry. I needed to just....stop.

Hopefully this is the circuit breaker I needed 🤞

Tomorrow - early start, good food at regular times, decent bedtime.