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On the part about "get out", I saw he could have been dreaming or sleeptalking and I wanted to say that too. I'm told I talk in my sleep. Talk is an understatement. I'm told I say extremely hurtful, offensive, vicious things in my sleep, often directed towards people who I have no ill feelings against. I'm talking about cussing, insulting their personality traits, going down deeply psychological analysis of them, using words an phrases that aren't common (as in rarely used, often intellectual words) screaming, punching and kicking in the air as if I were fighting them, all sorts of stuff very out of character of me.

I try to warn people about it if I'm planning on sleeping around them but even with a heads up, people usually aren't prepared for the things I'm told I say. I didn't even know I did it for a very long time, then after one friend had a serious talk with me about it and I shared the conversation with family members did I learn that it is a very common thing for me to do and I've been doing ever since I could first speak.

Maybe it's some sort of mental illness or repression or something but for the most part, the people I'm told I scream at when I'm asleep are people I deeply care about and never does my conscious mind ever have these thoughts or an urge to scream at anyone.

So it could be a red flag that the guy said "get out" but it still could be a sleep talking thing that he doesn't even know he does. I would bring it up with him directly in a non-confrontational but still serious manner. Ask him if he remembers doing it and what it meant. How he responds should help you decide if he is worth pursuing.

As for the ghosting, I've always used a 'three strikes and your out' rule. Things come up, I get it. If they come up a lot, they're out of my life.

Others mentioned that it sounds hardware related. That reminded me that you should visually inspect all ports, especially unused ones. I had a system locking up constantly once and it turned out to be from debris in a usb port on one of the monitors was causing a short. It's something that wont necessarily cause logged errors and can cause seemingly random behaviour that will have one chasing problems that don't exist. USB ports and DVI plugs especially can be hard to notice with how they are constructed. Audio jack holes too. Make sure there's no breaks in any cords. It seems too simple to be true and then it happens and you feel foolish for not having thought of it.

Hmm, for some reason I read 'paper holder' and my brain turned it into 'bookend', I thought it was for a bookshelf and mentally pictured a vertical contraption, I see now that isn't what you were going for.

The pricing situation seems similar to used furniture on craigslist. Some sellers seem to think furniture can only go up in value from the sticker price, regardless of the number of dogs owned. It's not like they are made out of marble...

You might be better off using steel ball bearings if they aren't going to be visible. From a casual search it looks like steel is cheaper than glass as far as balls are concerned.

I made a brush that writes my first name, in my own handwriting, in cursive. https://i.imgur.com/gGDbSJt.gif

There are not many opportunities where I can share this and people will understand what I'm talking about. I just felt like bragging. Carry on.

Learn how to ride a bike with no hands. Obviously, only do this is you have access to a relatively flat and safe path to practice.

Practice until you can go a mile or kilometer or whatever is your standard unit of measure for a decently long distance.

Your trauma's listed all appear to be focused on others (except the narcisissm one but I'm assuming that's about other people with it) and disappointment in them, or a lack of connection with them, or they are difficult or weary-ing. It is disconnecting you from yourself.

This might help you release your thoughts of the outside world, of analytical thinking, of everything. It requires focus on the physical body and absence of all other thought. Regain lost balance.

I am not a doctor or professional anything. Also I broke my elbow doing this. I don't regret it. Your milage (or kilometerage?) may vary.

Fetch me my brown pants.

Same. As for distro, for me personally, it should be designed to be usable with one hand, because I crashed and broke my elbow.

For bike users in general though, it should be something ...bespoke.

For non-ebike cyclists I think an analog computer would be appropriate. Wait, do those have an OS? I guess it would be a manual system but I gotta check the manual manual to be sure.

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but I already have an ebike, I don't need a car

Don't worry, thanks to climate change and unchecked corporate capitalism, you'll most likely not be able to work at one place for 40 years.

If you are in America and a legal adult, go see a doctor, try to get diagnosed with something that counts towards disability, then try to stay employed for at least 10 years then claim disability (generally about 10 years but look up the SSA rules for specifics), which will allow you avoid work and recieve a small amount of money that's generally impossible to live off of and severely limits what you can actually do and gives you free (but mediocre) healthcare. I haven't worked since the last day of 2019 because my new years resolution for 2020 was to not work anymore. I'm currently 43. I have ADHD, dyscalculia and I'm Bipolar.

If that's not your thing, start your own business, doesn't matter what and you don't need to actually have any revenue, just start it so you have it on paper that it exists. Then while you figure out how to stay alive using other means, you might get lucky and find some corporate dick who wants power that will buy your company for a ludicrous amount without actually knowing that you have no revenue ot staff or a product or any services. They just need it as a shell company anyways, so they can launder money and avoid paying taxes.

One other angle and the most legal and honorable one to try, is determine your two favorite hobbies. Turn one into your job focus and the other becomes the one you continue to enjoy in your free time. This method allows you to also have a backup, in case the job hobby doesn't work out. Eventually the hobby you still enjoy, if you still enjoy it, can be converted into a source of funding, provided you continually improve in it and network with other people who also enjoy it.