jaycifer

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[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago

That’s what the bottom drawer of my dresser is for.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 2 days ago

I can barely whistle, it sounds like a light breeze. I can barely snap my fingers, its more a soft thump than a snap 90% of the time. But hey, I can burp and pop my ears on command, so I’ve got that going for me.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 5 days ago

Kinda there with you. Just bought the base game, played through it once, ~70% through a hardcore Henry playthrough, and then I’ll wait for all the DLC to get that and do one more playthrough.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 5 points 5 days ago

I wrote this for a group chat, but I’ll also share my thoughts here:

In terms of the morality of the shooting, I think it comes down to the options people feel they have. The greatest strength of a democracy is that it gives voters the feeling of control over their political outcomes. If your guy/gal doesn’t get into office, it may suck for a while but you have another chance in the next election. As long as people feel they have some say over how the current system works, they will be much more agreeable with that system.

Trump and MAGA have been breaking that system for nine years at this point. It was bearable for most people the first four years as another election was coming, but during and since the last election cycle, that faith in a future election has been significantly strained. Things like Trump making comments about Musk “knowing the voting machines,” people “not having to worry about voting again” and mentions of a potential third term in office have cast doubt in the minds of many about whether the last elections were fair and whether future elections will be fair.

On top of this, post pandemic many peoples’ standard of living has fallen due to increased costs of essential goods, high medical costs, stagnant wages, and a housing market that has only gotten harder and harder to break into. For the past four years there may have been hope that policies could be enacted to alleviate some of these at a federal level, but a MAGA administration means those will not happen for at least a full term.

Combine that with the above concerns about the integrity of future elections, and the options that many people perceive themselves to have have narrowed further and further, and as Trump continues to test boundaries to concentrate more power to himself, only two options will be available in the minds of more and more people: Capitulate and risk a low standard of living or even death (either due to being an “outsider” like a LGBT member or being squeezed into homelessness/medical death due to finances)Fight back I think many people will gravitate toward option two. As discussed earlier that should mean political organization and voting, but also for the reasons discussed earlier that isn’t (or at least doesn’t feel) viable to many at this point. So that leaves violence as the only method of fighting back. We can see that with Brian Thompson, and now we can see that with Charlie Kirk. Both represented and participated in the systems that are restricting many peoples’ medical/financial and political options by running profit-oriented insurance or recruiting a generation of youths into MAGA.

All this to say, I don’t think it’s good that either was killed, but I frankly don’t know what else they expect people to do when the systems they support give people fewer and fewer alternatives.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 7 points 1 week ago

I mean, the guy is fucking Satan.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 6 points 1 week ago

It’s just a meme format to say indie devs are better than corporate studios. Not the best choice for this context, I would have gone with the “who would win” meme: corporate studios with millions of dollars vs two guys with 7 years and some free time.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

Wow, I have never heard of this series before. It looks like only the new versions are available to buy on Audible and Libro.fm for everything but the last book, which doesn't have a new version (yet). That's rather upsetting to hear that I can't get the originals anymore, at least not easily.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 2 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

It's all good, I can see now that it was more tongue-in-cheek, I think all those years on reddit just trained me to be defensive online. Plus I like having an excuse to explain myself.

I'll admit I only made it partway through The Dragon Reborn before falling off, which is a shame because it was my dad's favorite book series.

I do love a lot of Sanderson's stuff. Do you have a favorite book/series? I just finished Isles of the Emberdark and I like the way everything is starting to connect to one another so casually while still having standalone stories!

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 2 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

That makes some sense, and sounds like some quality experiences. Thank you for the link, I always get a little excited when I see a website with such a basic look, it usually means they care more about conveying their material than adding extra flair.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 5 points 3 weeks ago

Alright, I don't really have a message to direct at you, but I have some words that I kinda want to say to you.

I'm some of those same things. Never been diagnosed with autism (and not really interested in getting a diagnosis) but have consistently been friends with neuro-divergent people. I never had sex until my mid 20s, but up to that point I didn't think it would happen for a long while (my first thought afterward was "darn, now I'll never be a wizard"). If you aren't familiar with the term demisexual, look it up because that's me too! The person you responded to does not give me demisexual vibes, quite the opposite in fact. I can say that I have never given any real consideration to a person's "body count" because it give me the same feeling as hearing someone talk about "adulting." It's something I just don't think a person talking about it can understand because they are talking about it.

This may sound weird, but I think the best thing you can do is embrace your virginity, really own it and own the fact that you know you want an emotional attachment/relationship before sex. You mentioned having severe anxiety, so I get that that would be very difficult, but I can tell you that it is very worthwhile. One of my favorite memories is of going to a small house party of about 6 people and at some point hearing every person/couple talk about sex they had had. Because I had embraced my form of asexuality I found that humorous and just continued to have fun. Later when we played "never have I ever" you can bet I was the only person to get everyone else to drink when I said I had never had sex. Later that evening one of the guys I had met asked me if I was really a virgin with an incredulous tone that told me I did not fit his idea of one, and it was cool to see the change in his perspective.

And when you do do stuff with someone, it will probably be awkward, but it will also probably be with someone that you can continue seeing. And if it's anything like me and my first (and so far also only) partner, who also happened to be nonbinary, it will probably grow into some of the best, most intimate sex a person can have. Just remember that not having sex isn't you, but it can be an aspect of you. As a less cool version of myself once said; "you can only be cool if you're not trying to be cool," which I said in an effort to sound cool.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 3 points 3 weeks ago (3 children)

I’m not sure how many books Sanderson wrote, so I thought maybe someone might only consider the ones written by Jordan, which would put it closer to 10. And it’s the only series I know off the top of my head that has had at least a few of the books rerecorded by Amazon with new narrators (actors from the show) to replace the older narrators. I figured I’d hazard a guess (hence the question mark) and be corrected rather than just ask the question, especially considering the internet’s tendency to enjoy telling someone they are wrong more than answering a question.

Which series do you think it is?

 

Yesterday was my birthday. A few years ago, when I was in a bad place mentally, I didn’t answer my dad’s phone call to wish me a happy birthday. He left a voicemail in which he sang the song to me and hoped I wasn’t just working at the pizza place and went out with friends.

That was about a year before the isolation of Covid times led him to start drinking vodka on the regular. He was never able to stop more than a few months at a time after that, even with rehab, therapy, and AA. It felt like a race between him figuring out how to quit and how long before his body couldn’t give him more chances to do so.

At the start of September, I moved him across the country to be closer to family while he recovered from another round of binge drinking and starving himself. I had quit hard liquor a couple months prior after getting too drunk too fast for comfort at my friend’s wedding. After this weekend I stopped drinking everything else.

At the end of September, he lost the race. He managed to call an ambulance when he realized this detox felt different, walked himself outside to meet them and only passed out when he was on the stretcher. A day later in a medically induced coma complications ended his brain’s faculties and he died. The only sign of what he had been thinking was the book he brought to the ambulance. The last marked page ended with a character scared after an encounter whispering to himself “still alive, still alive.”

I have not drank for 9 months now. I was headed that way before, but now I feel I can’t drink. To do so would disrespect what my dad went through. Yesterday was my birthday. I made plans with my friends for a full day, but before I left I listened to that voicemail for the first time since he left it for me, before I had reason to worry about him, when I was the one he worried about. I miss him so much. I hope he would be proud.

 

In college a few years ago, I decided to spend that time building up a foundation of beliefs and philosophy while my brain finished developing that would serve me for the rest of my life. This focus on self-improvement led to less mental energy spent on other people.

I think this has given some the impression that I’m a little narcissistic, but I’ve been pretty good at avoiding overconfidence. I’ve long considered myself self-absorbed but not self-centered, focussing on myself but only so I can be a better person than I’ve been.

Last Friday I realized that at some point I moved from one to the other. I stopped listening and started waiting to get conversations over with, only wondering what I was going to need to do for them. I stopped growing because I ran out out of things I had thought of that I had a reason to learn.

I don’t like being like this. I am trying to shift from a “what do I need to do?” attitude to a “what do others need that I can help with?” Any advice?

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