jaycifer

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[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago

Yeah, I remember taking a walk through the polar vortex back in 2019 and feeling heat escape my clothing like air from a ripped astronaut suit, but that was a 20 minute walk and I anticipate being out in it for multiple hours this time. That means I need to prep differently.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Okay, I can respect doing those things. But between this and the other thread we’ve been talking in, I’ve felt that you are being dismissive of actions beyond standing around with a sign that don’t involve directly inhibiting ICE, such as delivering foods to families that can’t leave their home for fear of ICE. It honestly gave me the impression of an out of State keyboard warrior telling other people to get themselves killed.

To be frank, I’m not at the point where I’ll slash tires, although I’m not extremely far off and getting closer with every news article and discussion with friends and family. I’ve always been more of a supporter of others, and right now that means doing the work to ensure the targets of ICE are as secure as possible while you do the work of making ICE’s lives hell. I don’t think it’s crazy to say both should be respected.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago (3 children)

I’m not sure what non-peaceful protest doesn’t turn into shooting, so I’d actually love if you elaborated on what that looks like.

Anyway, see you downtown tomorrow!

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago (6 children)

Maybe you’re used to it, but the world hasn’t felt normal to me for the last decade.

In your honor, tonight I’ll dream of jim bringing his gun to the white house to enact justice. Maybe he’ll make a pitstop in Minneapolis with a bullet for every one of the 3,000 ICE agents outnumbering our police five to one.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 0 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Wow, everything you just said could be mirrored right back at you. So here is the mirror:

Ahhh fighting the federal government is your plan.

That’s perfectly fine, pal. But stop telling people that doing something besides shooting is a bad thing. I know you won’t protect the folks around you, but lots of people will stand up to protect you… and they just need encouragement.

So when you see people suggesting non-violent fighting instead of killing people… just don’t comment.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago (8 children)

If the last year has been a slow boil, I’d love to see a fast one.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago (3 children)

How about a moratorium on evictions so endangered families can stay safe at home? Done.

How about volunteers delivering food to those families at home so they don’t have to leave? Done.

How about schools pivoting to allow remote learning options so endangered students can continue to receive an education without having to risk leaving the house? Done or almost done depending on district.

If you think this march is the only thing we are doing, then you haven’t done your research. This march draws national eyes, but it also allows local organizers to recruit new people to take steps to weather this siege in a fashion that increases national (and international) support instead of stepping on it through violent means.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago (10 children)

Yeah, I just said that’s their plan, to enact martial law. But if they were planning to do so with zero precedent, then why haven’t they done so already?

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 day ago

You already said solved, but I have more to add to the other comments. As someone who rarely plays turn based JRPGs, the gameplay is very good as each party member has their own unique system that develops over the game, which keeps things from getting stale most of the time.

The artwork and graphics are gorgeous, it often feels like walking through a painting in the best way possible.

I don’t spoil any plot points below, but do discuss the themes through the ending and how they affected me.

But the thing that cemented this game in my mind is the theme. From the outset this game has a major theme of dealing with grief. In the first few minutes it’s established that everyone is grieving almost all the time, and the game looks at how different characters deal with that grief. I was dealing with my own grief when I started playing it, and while I kept that and the game separated for most of the game as the finale approached the game and my own thoughts/experiences intertwined in a way that I have very rarely experienced with media. This culminated in the only narrative decision the player makes, and is the hardest decision I have ever made in a video game. I sat there pondering it for at least five minutes. I was still processing the experience when I talked to my therapist the next day, and when I shared my feelings she told me she had never thought games could be so impactful.

If grief is something you are very in touch with, I highly recommend playing Clair Obscur.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 2 points 1 day ago

Huh, I guess I was too focused on the 75% decrease to notice.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world -1 points 1 day ago (12 children)

That’s exactly what the executive branch wants so they can use the insurrection act to enact martial law. Is that what you’re advocating for?

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 11 points 2 days ago (2 children)

I’m not skipping work, but when I put in the personal time off request and told my boss why it was such short notice he said to get out there and do the work, so that’s what’s happening.

I’ve been pretty nervous looking at the weather and how that may affect turnout. The forecast has a low of -23, which rivals some of the worst cold snaps I’ve seen up here factoring in windchill. But it turns out that’s just in the morning. By the time the march happens it’ll be closer to -10. That’s just adding sweatpants between my leggings and jeans and some thinner gloves under my inner glove layer.

I hope this makes a difference.

 
 

I had never heard this word before a week or two ago, and now I’m seeing it in memes, discussions, etc. Why is a resin becoming more prevalent online?

 

Yesterday was my birthday. A few years ago, when I was in a bad place mentally, I didn’t answer my dad’s phone call to wish me a happy birthday. He left a voicemail in which he sang the song to me and hoped I wasn’t just working at the pizza place and went out with friends.

That was about a year before the isolation of Covid times led him to start drinking vodka on the regular. He was never able to stop more than a few months at a time after that, even with rehab, therapy, and AA. It felt like a race between him figuring out how to quit and how long before his body couldn’t give him more chances to do so.

At the start of September, I moved him across the country to be closer to family while he recovered from another round of binge drinking and starving himself. I had quit hard liquor a couple months prior after getting too drunk too fast for comfort at my friend’s wedding. After this weekend I stopped drinking everything else.

At the end of September, he lost the race. He managed to call an ambulance when he realized this detox felt different, walked himself outside to meet them and only passed out when he was on the stretcher. A day later in a medically induced coma complications ended his brain’s faculties and he died. The only sign of what he had been thinking was the book he brought to the ambulance. The last marked page ended with a character scared after an encounter whispering to himself “still alive, still alive.”

I have not drank for 9 months now. I was headed that way before, but now I feel I can’t drink. To do so would disrespect what my dad went through. Yesterday was my birthday. I made plans with my friends for a full day, but before I left I listened to that voicemail for the first time since he left it for me, before I had reason to worry about him, when I was the one he worried about. I miss him so much. I hope he would be proud.

 

In college a few years ago, I decided to spend that time building up a foundation of beliefs and philosophy while my brain finished developing that would serve me for the rest of my life. This focus on self-improvement led to less mental energy spent on other people.

I think this has given some the impression that I’m a little narcissistic, but I’ve been pretty good at avoiding overconfidence. I’ve long considered myself self-absorbed but not self-centered, focussing on myself but only so I can be a better person than I’ve been.

Last Friday I realized that at some point I moved from one to the other. I stopped listening and started waiting to get conversations over with, only wondering what I was going to need to do for them. I stopped growing because I ran out out of things I had thought of that I had a reason to learn.

I don’t like being like this. I am trying to shift from a “what do I need to do?” attitude to a “what do others need that I can help with?” Any advice?

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