It's alright, I just wanted to be sure. I do appreciate the perspective you provided in your post, thank you for that.
FlameKeeper621
joined 5 months ago
That certainly is a deeply courageous decision, and that kind of resolve is admirable. It's also an extreme solution that literally involves destroying a part of one's brain, and thus forever losing an aspect of one's living experience.
I really hope your sentiment isn't that we should expect everyone with pedophilic attractions to jump for that kind of treatment at the first opportunity. Because I definitely don't want to get rid of my sex drive. It's a core part of my being, and such a measure is not necessary for me to avoid harmful behavior. I suspect the same applies to most folks with similar attractions.
What I have is an attraction that is innate to me. I didn't chose it, I discovered it. And it can't be changed or removed, any more than any other sexual preference.
It doesn't mean I'm going to go out and screw kids. I do in fact have a conscience, and I'm well aware of moral, social, and legal ruin that would come from crossing that line. That's plenty enough deterrent for me.
All I want is to be able to tend to my desires without hurting anyone and without being thrown in prison for literal thought-crimes. Is that too much to fucking ask?
And on the matter of professional help, I could try to seek therapy for issues related to my attraction, such as depressive thoughts thoughts and such, but given where I live, simply trying to find a therapist who would be willing to help pedophiles would be a considerable risk in itself. And the vast majority of listed services in my state are for convicted sex offenders, which does fuck-all for me.
What the hell am I supposed to do if I seek out a therapist, and the person I'm seeking help from freaks out and reports me to the authorities? Am I supposed to risk the collapse of my social and professional life on the chance that someone might be willing to help me??
No, I am not a troll. I posted here because, again, whenever I try to broach this topic outside of MAP forums, I keep getting shut out. Hence the situation outlined in my OP post.
I am in fact posting in good faith.
Thank you, that means a lot to me. I've come to expect such hostility because that's just the social environment we're living in, but it does weigh on me at times. So I definitely appreciate your kind words.