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can someone give me cool sports stories/their fave athletes? i’m bored. doesn’t have to be from an AES, even, just has to be a good interesting story. matter of fact, who’s keeping up w/ the olympics? saw the clip of the dprk athlete :3

the question was about social developments in mao's time. i have accommodations since im audhd which gives me a lot of extra time and i still didnt finish because i was so overwhelmed with possible directions and had several body paragraphs.

surely not going to score well at all, but hey, i dont respect this class and i had some fun because i love chinese history. last time on my practice test i was so exasperated with the class that i wrote my little neoliberal 'our father' prayer. i think my history teacher read it cuz she told me never to write in the margins since the teachers are required to read every inch of it and we've had talks before about me getting upset in class with topics i'm passionate about (PRC.) whatever, you know? genuinely at least i haven't died :)

i think it would be nice, genzedong has one and i would enjoy interacting with users here in a freer discussion type of way.

for starters i would like to say im a rich (not personally bougie, my family doesnt own businesses but im certainly rich) kid from semi periphery(?) vassal state, still in school. my life is not actually hard in any way and it kind of embarrasses me to rant about emotions when my situation is not that serious.

but my school is so neoliberal bougie with that insidious 'human rights' pretext that shoves atrocity propaganda slop particularly about AES down my throat and as a certified china enjoyer uh. well i had a bit of a meltdown in school today because my China booklet for my history course cites frank dikotter, masturbates to all sorts of . nonsensical ideas about women suffering even More because of Evil Oriental Gommunism, generally very . makes me fucking crazy (dalai lama tangent in there somewhere too) and im also autistic and i think i just dont get along well with humans because i started fucking weeping and screaming because Like Im So Fucking Crazy In Here. ~~borderline~~ straight up fash rich kids, rich kids with hitlerite particles in there like me that could get so close to figuring it out and then Dont, kids like me who maybe do want to get better and help the world but feel bogged down by slog of life, and still have that hitlerite particle in them and dont know how to get it out

i feel really embarrassed about my breakdown because it got ~~a bit~~ public and i was screaming to my friends who honestly dont rlly fw my politics (i talk to like, one about ml and the state of the world, and it freaked her out so bad she had a panic attack, and i was trying to be hopeful but also for us of different class interests it scares her more than it helps her, and she's empathetic and niceys so like. oh my god im fucking losing it) and like. OH MY GOD STOP FUCKING LYING ABOUT CHINA. STOP INSINUATING MAO FUCKING KILLED THE UYGHUR DELEGATE. STOP CITING FRANK DIKOTTER. STOP OPENLY EQUATING MAO TO ADOLF HITLER. I CANT TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE (my life is not bad and i'm sorry to rant like this) i feel very alone