I’m at my grandma’s right now (in vacation). It’s been fun since 3 weeks. But I got so many projects to finish with friends, there’s this very mysterious military abandoned building we need to explore, etc… and I really want to see them before we get back to class.

Next year will be a hell, I won’t probably even be with them but I have to cope last year of high school.

I’m kinda depressed of being stuck here, I just wish I could explore the city for abandoned places… or anything to do.

I started doing philosophy, thinking when I’m not programming to get out of my depressed mind.

Send help lol

Not great, work is dumb and micromanaging is a pain

Week is okay! I've been not making plans with friends because i'm trying to reserve time for applying to new jobs, but spending more time at home has me a lil depressed. it's a small funk, and I'll get over it. It's just hard balancing carving out time for this when life keeps on happening. Reminds me why i've been putting this off for like 2 years now.

I've been tooling around with using GPT4all to write cover letters - tbd if that is worth the effort, but i hate writing cover letters from scratch so i'm willing to put up with a lot of BS if it saves me from that.

Good, been trying to understand assembly (I am failing miserably). It's been awesome!

Exhausted. Working 52.5 hours this week between my two jobs.

Damn good this week

I'm currently on vacation for the week and turns out basically this whole week is supposed to be over 100F

I work in a hot warehouse going into truck trailers all day that are baking on the sun so I'm digging it

Good, been messing around with writing a N64 style renderer with gfx in Rust. Tho I'm probably leaving Beehaw, there seems to be TERFs in here.

Supervisor was being a prick last night during our shift, but I'm on 4-10s so I have the weekend now. And I'm unionized, so really whenever the mood strikes me, I can tell said supervisor to blow me. I'll still have a job. Thing is, the guy's like a parasite: if you let him get under your skin, he wins. So I bite my tongue and do my thing, fuck 'em.
Aside from that? Might finish Baldur's Gate 3 this weekend, but I've got errands to run and cleaning to do. Maybe some shopping. All in all, not a bad week. I leave the bullshit at work and live my life.

Ready to kill myself.

I'm tired of struggling everyday for shit that doesn't seem to matter in a world that is on fire with people who hate me.

I had a roof leak about 5 years ago that cause a lot of damage in one of the bedrooms. I fixed the leak but it took a long time to save up to fix the room. Last month I finally had enough money to get it fixed.

On Sunday, tropical storm Hilary caused several roof leaks including over the same bedroom. The ceiling, wall and carpet that I just replaced is destroyed along with a good chunk of ceiling in the garage. I can tear out the drywall in the garage and leave it, but idk how I'm going to afford to fix the roof and the bedroom.

So my week started out with a lot of frustration.

I have Baldur's Gate 3 brain rot. I can't stop looking at Astarion fan art.

I volunteered to moonlight in a second role at my day job. This week is the first time that the workload has been getting to me. I guess it's just going to be a stressful couple of weeks and then I'll get through it.