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Hey, so I made the "I don't wanna live anymore" post a few days ago. A couple things

1.Thanks for deleting the post, mods. I really just shouldn't have posted it but I wasn't thinking clearly at the time. But also thanks for everyone giving there support, and also being empathetic. I kinda hate how a lot of places are either "noooo you have so much to much to live for" + corny sayings, or it's like "fuck off." So it's nice having people who understood what I was/am going through.

2.Just overall was not having a good week. I was wrecked by work and had a health scare with one of my pets. I also just hadn't been able to get a lot of stuff out and my family has never really been helpful. So that's why I lost it so badly, basically.

3.I detoxxed for a couple days and now I'm feeling better. I made a plan for a couple things related to both my physical and mental health, and I also ordered some girl clothes. I know I wont look good [im not going to go out with them on], but it'll be a start at least.

4.Im also going to start therapy. Someone eon reddit informed me of "pro-bono" services some places provide, so I'm going to try to take advantage of those [it was on the deprogram subreddit which was vaporized, so I cant credit them] along with what my university provides.

5.Also imma try to get back to work on my substack. Honestly just not sure what to write about. I basically just made it to talk about the Stackelberg thing so :p

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[–] uncanny@lemmygrad.ml 8 points 2 weeks ago

glad you're getting better and seeking therapy

[–] Commiejones@lemmygrad.ml 7 points 2 weeks ago

I'm glad you are doing a bit better and that you have a plan to help deal with these issues.

Pets having health problems is horrible. My dog gets a sore back now and then and I worry every time that this one is the time that he won't get better. He's getting a older and he's such a good boy and I love him so much. When his back hurts sometimes I start to think about when he isn't around and it gets dark really fast so I have to tell myself that there is plenty of time to be sad after he is gone so I can't waste the time he is here.

[–] Maeve1@lemmygrad.ml 6 points 2 weeks ago

I'm so glad you have a self-care plan in place. I hope you can get into therapy and it's helpful.

[–] Saymaz@lemmygrad.ml 6 points 2 weeks ago

You are really brave for overcoming this psychological crisis, comrade. May you keep finding the courage to become whoever you wanna be and live however you wanna live your life.