Hey, so I made the "I don't wanna live anymore" post a few days ago. A couple things
1.Thanks for deleting the post, mods. I really just shouldn't have posted it but I wasn't thinking clearly at the time. But also thanks for everyone giving there support, and also being empathetic. I kinda hate how a lot of places are either "noooo you have so much to much to live for" + corny sayings, or it's like "fuck off." So it's nice having people who understood what I was/am going through.
2.Just overall was not having a good week. I was wrecked by work and had a health scare with one of my pets. I also just hadn't been able to get a lot of stuff out and my family has never really been helpful. So that's why I lost it so badly, basically.
3.I detoxxed for a couple days and now I'm feeling better. I made a plan for a couple things related to both my physical and mental health, and I also ordered some girl clothes. I know I wont look good [im not going to go out with them on], but it'll be a start at least.
4.Im also going to start therapy. Someone eon reddit informed me of "pro-bono" services some places provide, so I'm going to try to take advantage of those [it was on the deprogram subreddit which was vaporized, so I cant credit them] along with what my university provides.
5.Also imma try to get back to work on my substack. Honestly just not sure what to write about. I basically just made it to talk about the Stackelberg thing so :p
I'm glad you are doing a bit better and that you have a plan to help deal with these issues.
Pets having health problems is horrible. My dog gets a sore back now and then and I worry every time that this one is the time that he won't get better. He's getting a older and he's such a good boy and I love him so much. When his back hurts sometimes I start to think about when he isn't around and it gets dark really fast so I have to tell myself that there is plenty of time to be sad after he is gone so I can't waste the time he is here.