doomer

I'm in one of the better US states and even now I can't see any institution would stand up for marginalized folks as things get worse. I want out but my job is one that needs licensing for and it's so hard to read legal shit to tell if I would have any sort of reciprocity. I know some folks in other places who have offered marriage to get me out but if I can't support myself how could I even stay. If shit was like it was in a game I could just sell my shitty place and have a little bit of money to buy me time. I hate having to live through these times I hate that I think the only thing I can do is hope I fall through the cracks and get by unnoticed. It feels like there's no hope of anything getting better in my lifetime.

I hate the idea of leaving behind everyone I know and leaving the couple folks who rely on me for shelter to fend for themselves and it's so hard to reconcile with not wanting to be tortured for things I can't help about myself.