Atheism

I have been reluctant to call myself an atheist. Mainly because I associate the label with many negative qualities and find many atheists to be perpetually 14 edgelords who claim to be pro-science but seem to think the scientific method is composed of running into a church and yelling "Fake!"

I could go on if it were my intent to chase away my audience with a stick so I'll mostly leave it there.

How can I see such angry arrogant bullies chanting "Sky Daddy!" and go "Yes I am one of them?"

It is illogical.

But I have no choice but to wear the label, because God is not real.

If God were real, Christians would be the kindest and most giving people in the world.

I don't need to tell you how far from the case this is.

I don't need to tell you about the cruelty of Christian movements. About how all their good will and charitable acts begin and end at "Believe in our God and stop complaining!"

They do not stop suffering, they deny it even exists. Claiming it to be part of God's plan and how God doesn't make mistakes. The latter is true because the former isn't. God doesn't make mistakes because there is no plan, there is no God.

This is insanity

While I have known Christians who are truly kind people, some of them I call my dearest friends.... these are the exception not the rule. And even he, one of my best friends, will ignore his conscience and choose cruelty if he believes it the will of his God. Even if his Pope says it isn't.

If God were real these Christians would not be so angry that non believers and transpeople exist. They would be fearful of his wrath and joyous of his love.

The rich would not horde wealth but spend it in service to the poor, for the riches of Heaven would be far greater and far more permanent.

If God were real he would heal the sick, we would hear of the miraculous healing of amputees. We would hear of gender dysphoric teenagers who awoke in a new body. We would hear how the angels themselves condemned Israel's genocide of Palestine.

God would have saved my Christian friend who became brain dead in a hit and run, and actually dead two weeks later.

God would have halted the actions of every man of faith who decided to prey upon children, nay they'd be too scared of his wrath to even have thoughts of doing as such.

But God will never lift a finger to help anyone. Not because he is cruel or indifferent. But because he isn't there.

Should I hear a voice with an otherworldly glow say "It's me, the Lord your God. I am sorry for my absence, but I need your help to make this right."

All would be forgiven and I would bow in reverence to Christ.

But that day will not come.

I am an atheist not because I am heartless and reject him... but because my heart calls out to him and receives nothing.

I have pondered if maybe God is around and some can hear him more clearly than others.

But then I remember how Conservatives behave, either using God for a selfish agenda or being suckered by false holy men....

And there goes that hypothesis.

God, if you're willing to talk I am willing to listen. But sadly you aren't because you don't exist.