People in my circles are quite suspicious of me now due to my inability to be quiet.
It feels dumb to talk about and it's hard to even really find the words to what I want to say but I find it difficuilt to keep quiet sometimes, especially when someone says something very dumb about something I've been putting a lot of time into studying. There have been a couple times now where someone has said something dreadful about Palestinians and I've had to reprimand them. It's hard to keep quiet about things like this while also not going too far. Sometimes simply saying that you don't hate Chinese people for no reason at all is enough to make some people around you suspicious. One time someone raised their eyebrow just because I said I'd love to visit China some day. When someone for example makes a comment about Cuba that's clearly just wrong, I try to nudge them in the right direction subtly but it turns out not subtle enough. I need to learn to be quiet sometimes but even if I do stay quiet that also looks suspicious! I guess the only thing left to do is pretend to be a lib but it feels .. wrong. It feels like I'm encouraging those beliefs to the people around me. I think I just need to chill and let things be but it's hard sometimes. I try to surround myself with cool people but that's not always possible. It feels dumb to talk about but it's been bothering me a lot lately. Have any of you ever felt like this?
Edit: Thank you all for the great advice! Sorry about my unorganized rambiling, I was a bit tired when I wrote this. The replies are very helpful and have given me a lot to think about. Thanks again :)
Edit 2: I've thought a lot more about how I felt and how to best articulate things but first I want to quickly clarify that I would never be quiet or tolerate any kind of vile hatred aimed towards Palestinians or any marginalised and attacked people. Ever. I think over time people started getting upset with me and saying that I was an extremist, radical and other flavours of red for voicing my opinions or just getting suspicious of the things I've said over time. Sometimes even smalI things like just not hating China was enough to confuse some people and it started to weigh down on me.
I thought I'd have to cool it off and stop being so vocal on some things due to the backlash I had been facing but after reflection I realized that my words have actually made a difference and have actually pushed people further left on issues that they nornally would not have been. Even with small things like just humanising Chinese people. Some people are just vile and cannot be reasoned with but others can be talked to. I suppose after awhile it starts to wear down on you and get at you. But I've taken the advice given to me here to heart and I'll best to continue with what I'm doing. Once more thank you for the advice I'll try my best!
PS: Sorry for the edits I'm not used to forums I hope it doesn't disturb anything :]
Don't cool it unless you want to be a liberal of the 7th type.
Maybe try some of the methods other people suggest to make it seem less antagonistic but don't let people continue to spread lies and imperialist propaganda. Make people aware that the views they are sharing support war, white supremacy, and exploitation. Make them question why they are repeating the narratives that send thousands of young men to die to make a few old white men richer.
If that makes them uncomfortable? Good. Comfort breeds complacency. Agitation is the name of the game in the imperial core. Make people see that their best interests are not the interests of the capitalists. Make people see that their comfort is a bed of corpses built by slaves.
If this makes you unpopular with some people? Good. Those people are the enemy. Even if they were your "friends" they would never help you if you were down on your luck because they believe "greed is human nature" and "capitalism is Darwinism."
The people who don't shy from the truth have the potential to be comrades who will will walk through fire with you. You need to find those people if you want to survive.