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I got married last night.

My partner and I have been living as though we were married for over a decade but haven't had the actual marriage license for various reasons. I'm going to have good insurance soon, so it makes sense to get married so my partner can be covered

We got married online by a service that uses the 1 county in the US that allows it. The guy who did the service was actually amazing. He seemed genuinely happy for us, didn't try to push any kind of particular process or religious stuff, and actually got a little teary eyed at the end.

I live in the poorest part of my city, and just found out an apartment complex I walk past everyday is in the middle of a tenant strike against their Israeli slumlord. Even the people here I like I've met haven't read any actual leftist texts, so seeing people so close to me geographically take direct action is cool

Old but still funny to remember as the US makes their detention facilities even more draconian than they already are.

Why is no one ever linking Noncompete and Luna Oi here?

Their material is like the only surviving part of "breadtube" that hasn't decayed into rot. It has instead aged like wine.

Browser companies be like:

Introducing "idiot pissing in public" button. With this highly requested button (requested by 2 very annoying people), you can look at the random pictores of people pissing in public. To make space for it, we removed 2 very unused buttons: back button and settings button. If you are behind times, you can activate back function by saying "oiyoayoayoayo" to microphone (be careful, if it is too loud or too quiet, it will donate 100 dollars to IsraelGPT). To access settings menu, just press control+shit+alt+tab+capslock+F

it is august 19 and stalin saved the world from fascism

Lady at the drug testing place told me my piss was hot yeah ok, pervert.

Kitten bros: The Return

This is a small rant. Don’t mind me. I’m just a little pissy right now.

CW: The following paragraphs discuss some touchy subjects but don’t go far into detail about them. Suicidal ideation alluded to as well.

I’ve been around these parts for a very long time. Over ten years now in total if you include the subreddit when it was around. To this day, I still don’t quite understand the general culture that were centered around.

Like I thought this community was built from general empathy and attempting to minimize issues for others. Things such as requiring CWs for touchy topics (e.g. meat, suicidal ideation, and the like) was always a thing that seemed central to how hexbear in particular was built. Empathy really being the central theme. Seemingly.

Gods save me if I’m not reminded quite often that it’s not the case. Particularly getting pretty ratioed in that topic involving the new Kelly comic being the newest example. Another being having some folks minimizing SA (this one was a bit ago). And the last time I left the site was someone triggering me to the lowest point in my life. I’m genuinely glad I’m still alive after that. The individual in question blocked me and had no repercussions enacted upon them. I will forever be sour about that interaction and I genuinely have no idea why I came back here after that, but here I am.

What I’m saying here ultimately is that, in my eyes, admin and mods need to consider a few things. One is they need to iron out the rules a little better, figuring out what falls where and where boundaries exist. Two is that the rules then need to actually be implemented and proper punishment meted out against offending individuals. Cause honestly, just as it always has been, things are not done evenly here and never has been. And really, empathy should be a central theme for this community, all things considered.

I love my mom but every time we talk about work and stuff I have to find new and unique ways to explain to her that I'm not interested in spending every single waking moment of my life earning money and I really just want to spend the minimum amount of time working so that I can buy food for me and my dog and pursue my hobbies and even stuff like my plan to add more certifications to my resume is really just me pursuing ways to reduce the number of hours per week I have to work to make just barely enough.

My kitty just assertively settled down on .y lap

white amerikkkan gen a kid named andrough jaxssyn

it may look pathetic that i'm in my early 30s spending a friday night ripping the subtitles from a pirated copy of the second pokemon movie while listening to linkin park, but 10 year old me would be proud

So I've been living pretty much as a NEET for the past 4-5 years or so. I have severe ADHD and only in recent years did I get prescribed Elvanse, and while they do help, I'm still struggling to deal with the bad habits and instant gratification addiction I built up over the 20+ years before then. After a lot of denial I've had to accept that I cannot have a healthy relationship with things like video games and youtube and have to banish them from my life pretty much entirely. Which is easier said than done because they've been my life for years now.

Getting rid of gaming is the easier part. I've unplugged my PC and placed it in my parents' room. Unplugged all the cables too and put them in a cable drawer so if I were to get the urge to game again, it would be too much of a hassle to turn the PC on again and it'd no longer be instant gratification.

Youtube is the bigger hurdle because it's so much more accessible. I deleted the app from my devices and put website blockers on my laptop and smart devices. I've gone several weeks without gaming multiple times but I have never made it more than two days without opening youtube.

I'm currently on Day 9 with no games and about 15 hours with no YT. I'm sitting in my basement, staring at my laptop screen which has literally every possible distraction outlet blocked and/or uninstalled. The lack of stimulation is intense. The classic chronic ADHD leg-shaking is so intense rn that it's making me sore, I'm constantly biting my lip, sometimes hitting my leg with my fist or hitting my desk with the palm of my hand. Dopamine withdrawal symptoms I suppose? Has anyone else been in a situation like this? Does it go away? I guess I've been frying my brain with overstimulation for years now, I just hope I can un-fry it.

I'm experiencing an actual " You lacked The Vitamin yet you persisted" moment after taking B12 for the first time and feeling like someone sliced my ADHD in half

edit: For the first time I did a shift and had energy for pushups after

in addition to supporting various flying insects including native bees, a monarch butterfly visited my native flower garden!!!! so exciting

i got the house to myself for the next ten days, i can be naked at home. wahoo! clothes off!

I had forgotten the title "Another Reason Why I Don't Keep A Gun In The House" so I googled something like "poem about a man being driven insane by his neighbors barking dog" and that fuckass robot had the goddamn temerity to write me its own shitty poem on that subject.

(Yes, I know it's a glorified spell checker and even accusing it of "having temerity" is anthropomorphizing it)

Wait a second the small dick inspector doesn’t work Thursday evenings

sword of damocleez nuts

I finally got a tiny camera to take when I go running. Sucks that everything small is an action cam with really wide angle lenses, but it's better than nothing. Haven't got any great shots yet, but here's one:

lying in bed
sleep is unachievable I am cursed to forever be conscious
get up and walk 2 steps
I am the tiredest person on this earth and will fall onto a 1000 year slumber in just a second
get down
sleep is unachievable rest will never come
Post about it on hexbear
repeat

Shoulder hurts, can't sleep :(

Was thinking it would be nice to have health insurance so I could maybe get it looked at, but then I remembered that I had insurance for years and still couldn't actually ever afford to use it really

You liberals and all your pronouns. I'm just a simple farmer with an ox, a bull, a steer, a calf, a heifer, a cow, a bullock, and a bovine.

Falafel is the greatest food thing ever. In a wrap, dipped in stuff, just by itself, cheap, easy af, delicious. I used my work skills and kitchen scale to figure out the food cost for each falafel wrap I mske at home. It is like $1.50 per wrap. You gotta spend in bulk, but chicken pea flour, spices, veggies to pickle all last. For things that expire its hummus or garlic for the vegan garlic sauce I make using chickpea juice,the fresh veggies and the pita bread. There is a really big lebanese presence foodwise in my city that has been aroind long enough that there is a local pita bakery that does damn well and has a huge shelf of their misshapen or old ones outside the bakery every day, i could happily live off falafel and veggies in a pita for every meal I ever eat

Now I have this new MP3 player I feel like I could write some annoying-ass Vice article like "This $80 music player is re-queering my relationship with music" and it's just 300 SEO friendly keywords put through Chat JeeblyTea a few times and a bunch of affiliate links

I journaled too close to the sun and fucked my thumb up. I need my thumb to do my job so no journaling for me this week

I think the most annoying part of being disabled but employed is that the things you actually enjoy doing are what need to be sacrificed so you can continue working

The best employee retention strategy is a job where you can turn up late, have an hour and a half lunch break, then leave early.

Anyway, if you hear about me looking for a new job soon you know why

Superpower concept: The ability to force people to stop and clearly explain what the fuck they were thinking when they pulled that bullshit just now.

Saw this today

I ordered some coffee syrups on sunday to make more fun matcha lattes and havent received a notification from the shop yet

I checked the reviews and some of them said they never received their order

I'll wait until next week to contact them about it

today, i will post

Cyberpunk 2077 apology form

I thought it was tacky that the people there said "flatlined" instead of "killed", but then I lived to see "unalived" become common slang less than a decade later

THIS IS YOUR WARNING, SEXISM, RACISM, HOMOPHOBIA, ETC, WILL NET YOU A BAN

it is august 22 and stalin saved the world from fascism

Tough conversations with the partner about moving. I want to move to the bigger city near by, closer to work with more parks and people I know and social activities and recreational activities, but they're worried about the pets (2 cats + dog) not getting enough enrichment in an apartment. We might not even be forced into an apartment but that's beside the point

The life I want to live is passing me by here, I'm not getting the enrichment I need, and neither is my partner. I'm convinced we'd be happier, which would be good for the pets!

I do wrist stretches at least twice a day (usually like 15 minutes apart before I go to bed) and now im doing them while I stand on this thing I got for calf stretches

Stretchmaxing

I uncritically support posting Skaven Yaoi to the Total War Subreddit

y'all ever get so confused about something that even the people around you are confused. Like you just warped space and time, nobody knows what the hell you're talking about. This has unfortunately become an "aranyah-ism" 😔 Or at least I have recently accepted that it's an aspect of my existence, and it has happened to me most of my life.

Working maintenance is a lot like point and click adventure games ngl "use reach hand on lint vent" "use petroleum jelly on lint" then I'm gonna get so much lint it's gonna be a project