Autism

Other kind of neurodivergence and I not only battle with how unjust this all is, but also with how little it makes sense. Personal gain is usually such a short-sighted goal and the things they currently do (your guys in the US but here in Germany too) are objectively so stupid that they're likely nullifying a lot of the personal gain within the next years.

It sometimes feels like being in the middle of a horde of suicidal lemmings, running towards the cliff and though seeing it, I can't get out. And the majority of people around us is still fine with this..

i don't think i can be too honest about how i'm doing, i might say something kinda violent

As an American, I don't understand how anyone can be proud of our "founding principles" without also being deeply ashamed of our failure to live up to them. It fucking hurts to live with this much hypocrisy, and I'm not the one getting snatched off the fucking street. Better just keep absorbing as much info as possible lest I feel guilty for ignoring it...

I used the "cover your ears and sing" tactic. Basically turning off news and retreating into my own little bubble and just trying to maintain that in functional order as this is the only thing i can have at least some control over.

Beyond major events that seep through regardless, i have no idea whats going on. Which is kinda bad now that I'm on lemmy as this place doesn't have my countries specific sub/instance so i have no idea what's going on in my own country as well, but at the same time i really don't want to be constantly blasted with the worst shit happening across the world. I already have issues with being too negative and cynical.

I doubt that human brain, NT or ND, has evolved to keep up with modern news cycle that collects worst news across the world and just blast you 24/7 with it.

It's like the modern news cycle is designed to make a person feel bad by showing them things they can do almost nothing about, while hiding things close by that they might have at least some effect over.

I have found that what one considers injustice is subjective. We have many people with ADHD at my job including myself, one is full on maga republican, he is doing just fine.

I'm in therapy and have been offered anti anxiety pills on more than one occasion by my psychiatrist. I'm not doing well at all.

People at work keep asking me what I do on my free time and I always tell them the same thing and after a while, they start to look at me funny even though they're the one's asking me the same question expecting a different answer.

I see little reason to travel rn given things happening everywhere. Can't afford nice things rn because of everything going on rn. Like honestly, tf kind of answer do people want from me?

It's my shitty life. Go fuck off with yours if you give such a damn about what I do all day.

I just turned down an opportunity of a lifetime because I need to be able to sleep at night. Please never say Americans don't care.

I love each and every person here. Please catch your neighbor when we crash and burn.

No corporate cult is worth our sacrifice. Bless you all!

Translation: people with ADHD are perfectly normal, while neurotypical people are fine with injustice.

are fire hoses particularly absorbent?

Nope, my hatred of the current state of affairs is starting to annoy people.

It's war and Im gonna boycot stuff because FUCK to the NO!

Me, sitting here with so-called "justice sensitivity":

There's this asshole parking in a complete no parking street in a pretty dangerous spot every day for a week now and I've reported it to the correct public channel for such nuisances daily. I'm so frickin annoyed by it and my partner just doesn't get it.

I have not been well since I quit drinking in 2012. I wasn't well then either, I was just able to drown it out

Can confirm, not doing okay.

Though I'm not raging. That instinctive impulse was neutered from me in childhood. Instead my traumatic coping mechanism is to recoil, lock up, and become antisocial hoping that the things will pass..... I think I've spent the last decade in a constant state of "waiting"....

My coping mechanism: when I feel that I am going to be overwhelmed by bad news or the cruelty for the sake of it.

1. Is this something I can influence in a way or another? The answer is typically no (otherwise I would have already worked on addressing)
2. Spending emotional energies on this would change anything for this instance? The answer is always no
3. If I keep on wasting emotional energies on this topic that I can’t change, will I have the energies for having an impact on things I can have an impact on?

This makes me realise that the best I can do for the system is, sadly, ignore the problem. Not because I don’t care but for a strategic effort in doing what I can

AuAHD with bi-polar. I got angry enough with a letter that the fbi came out and inspected my home, worried I was hoarding weapons.

They know how angry we are. There is a reason some are doing everything they can to either double down with thier fascist identity or are jumping ship.

I made it clear to them, if they think I'm MAD there are people out there who will go beyond words.

I.. Strangely feel more free. Now that I know for certain I'm being watched, I kinda lost fear of it. Not because they are right, but because I know I wasted thier time and that I have the ability to talk the fbi down from arresting me.. It's so strange.

But I also know, when these awful people get desperate, I'm on thier list and high up it.

I've been walking around my house, looking for cover spots with the energy of a counter strike player analyzing a map for any tactical advantage.

Planning on what to do when they try rounding me up.

When I'm not planing for the downfall of America, I watch our world like one watches a hyper slow mo crash of a train flying off the tracks into low income but surprisingly diverse neighborhood full of orphans and the train is full of ignorant fat white people who only now look the tiniest bit scared as the now realize that the train is crashing despite countless warning signs. And... All I can do is watch.. I can't save a soul. And as this train wreck ends, for some reason I know the survivors that were on the train are some how still going to blame the low income neighborhood.

And some how.. I'm supposed stay alive and fight this evil.. When all I see is people hopelessly cling to the idea that we can all have peace if we just talk it out. When I know it will take death, of some kind to actually fix it. No matter what.

Words are becoming meaningless, promises empty, and our fates at the whim of entropy and what some rich people feel that day..

I some how don't "give up." I some how I still get up, some how I still take my meds and stay mostly sober. Mostly for the two cats in my care that have been handling the collapse of the world with a grace and calmness only the monks on mountains know.

I also get up for husband's older sister's family, who, despite all this and having to put up with a system that favors killing good men, are raising 1 AuAHD kid, two infants who may also have it. And the older sister's husband is still paying child support to make things right with his ex wife and still greatly cares for his 2 kids birthed by the ex wife, despite the ex wife ignoring the very clearly autistic kid and shunning the other kid for not being lady enough.

I wake up for my cousin who is Rasing a severely autistic daughter who is non verbal, incontinent, 12 year old in the budget of 30 hour week at Arby's as shift manager (young adult baby sitter), while she keeps the sanity of failed unemployed musician of a husband who's mental health and physical health is declining rapidly due to onslaught of fake news and propaganda slamming through the Ai slop that is tiktok and Instagram reels. All the while she has to live with her husband's family on one room because the husband doesn't trust any government assitance programs.

I wake up for my upper middle class retired grandmother who is hemmoraging money to make sure I and my cousin don't die and are cared for. All the while her friends and family are dropping like flies in a bug bombed house. Either as the results of long term covid or old age. She is last one.

All the while I still grieve the loss of mother who died single because men took advantage of her emotions and because my biological dad died 2 weeks before my mom learned she was pregnant with me.

For the love of humanity and all that is good in this world, do not give up, do not make my families sacrifices in vain.

I recently also got diagnosed with fibromyalgia, I can't do anything violent let alone productive even if I wanted to, my body isn't strong enough.

Please, do everything you can to make a better world for us all.

My kid picked this up from me. Poor bastard.

Why is this in the autism community when it’s about ADHD?

I agree with the post as someone with ADHD. When I’m in the shower, I listen to NPR and Apple News. I’ve had times where I break down in tears over something so tiny either sweet or awful. It’s exhausting sometimes.

That explains so much.

The world is so depressing to me right now. I've retreated inward as a result focusing purely on myself and family.

Home projects and friends have been most of my free time.

Honestly just been kinda numb for a long time now. It's going to suck when my brain actually starts processing things again, but, for now, I'm a human robot level of functional.

I'm doing ok but I guess you reach a point where you learn to disassociate. It took 9/11 for me to learn this. People wouldn't know but that was a dark period for me not because of what happened in America but the collective ability for America to go "OMG HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO US?" Like read the fucking room.

So anyways as a Canadian that was the moment I started appreciating the world for all the flaws and focused on protecting me and mine.

Ah.

A-hah.

Ha!, even. Hahahahahahahaahahahaah!

Nah, it was hard back when it was 9/11 being used as an excuse. These days? Sanity is overrated. XD

I just got on ADHD meds and it's making it harder to ignore the world being on fire. I'm more focused on it and I'm going to have a nervous breakdown.

I've described myself as being some kind of mild to moderatly depressed for the last 35 years.